Wednesday, March 20, 2013

The Teary Eyes Of Mama


This evening, mama was crying in front of me,
when we talk about the result which come out tomorrow. 
Actually, we didn't have a deep talk, 
mama told me about her yesteryear form 5 student who 
came and pay her a visit. 

Suddenly her eyes got teary. 
I can not even look at her face. 
My face cannot up straight. 

With this kind situation, how should I face her 
if tomorrow I didn't reach the expectation?

Ya Allah, I didn't ask much. I just praying and hope the result I will get tomorrow is good enough to make her relieve and happy. I just..

The time is nearer. I couldn't even count my fingers correctly
even though I know its completely 10. 

Ma, I love you so much. I have ironing all the cloth for tomorrow. 
I have mopped the floor and I have washed all the cloth. 
I already make everything done. 
Tonight, it is not about I want to avoid you.
Tonight I just want to be in my room. 
Tonight I just want to lock my door earlier. 
I cannot help myself feeling guilty when look at your tears. 

Mama, I love you. 
Please give me your bless. 
Allah will not give me His bless if you're not blessing me, ma. 

I know you love me so much and you always
think about your children more than you think about yourself. 

Ma, I cannot even promise you anything. 
but..I hope it will be well.