What I wanted to be

Since I was a kid, I really wanted to be a lawyer.

Not because I really understood what justice is but because 

I love the struggle and determination of a lawyer to win the case. 

I don't really see the impact of defending wrong person at that time, 

I just young and foolish [at that time]

When I grow up with those korean-legal-drama, 

I understood what justice is, 

and I know being a lawyer is not as easy. 

I know that you must put everything on the line to serve the people, 

the good one, the one who been jeopardized, the one who was sacrificed 

to cover up someone's else crimes, 

and I know, I must put everything on the line including my life 

to uphold justice for a better Malaysia.

and that's what I gonna do. 

but it's all about what has fated for us. 

I wasn't go to law school. [which yes, I am regretting it]

if and only if I persuade my mother a little bit more, I could just get in,

I could just be a lawyer.

But that was five years ago and nothing I do now could change it.

I am now a bachelor in maritime operation .
I cannot undo the decision, neither did I want to spend more time
taking another degree in law.
Because it's now time for me to contribute back to my family.
I will need to work and earn money too.

I know I have time limit,
and this is not like playing chess in computer where you can undo your step,
I need to move on, perhaps, this is the path that Allah wants for me,
that's why He allow this to happen.

InsyaAllah