I regretting it now for not going to the interview last January.
I might be able to get a new routine.
I might not be here in this office if I am a little bit firm with my decision.
All of these keep playing in my head,
distracting my focus in life.
and I don't know why this time,
all I did is let it be.
One side of me tells me that
this is all what I need to go through to gain experience and become stronger,
it is Allah's plan that is good for me and perhaps,
this is what the best for me.
I must have faith that it will do good to me for the good things to happen
and for the reasons to become sensible.
but the other side is,
this is a battle,
you must fight to win,
Allah didn't put you in any situation just for you to go with the flow,
sometimes you need to stand up and fight,
for it will make you a stronger fighter.
it's true,
until when will I say, 'oh this is Allah's plan, so I only need to follow'
but from my own side, I did nothing to deal with the situation
or even change it.
so now, I really don't know what should I do.