"You are too self-centered"
she told herself
and wonder if that's the best or the worst.
she's just trying to get to know
herself better.
she's just trying to understand
herself better.
so she could embrace all the flaws
and cherish her power
for she knows that there must be
something she could do to help the ummah,
to give and contribute.
but there is another side of her,
which think this might not be the best,
because she's too self-centered
that she's always look at things
and relate back only to her life.
when people seek advice from her,
she could relate things in her life.
on her birthday,
she told how grateful she is to be born,
on her friend's birthday
she told how grateful she is to be born as their friend.
whatever happened, it always her at the end.
whatever happened, at end only her that matters.
and so, she get confused.
of what to do and what to be.