"He knows" I was speechless when I heard that. He eventually find out about my feelings towards him but how? That is what I have been thinking right now, ever since I know about he-finding-the-truth. I know someone might have told him but I don't know who, because I think I told almost everyone who close to me about him. Hhaha, I am a fool, I know.
I know someone might have told him, but I cannot guess who and I would never dare to tell the faces passed on my mind everytime I think about the criminal because I afraid I might not want to be his / her friend anymore. Hhaha. Because I really really wanted to trust everyone who dear to me. I really really wanted to believe that they are not betraying me. And for once, I really really wanted to feel that I can entrust them with my secrets. But hey, what am I imagining?? and hey, it was me who contribute to what is happening.
I took some time where I realize that it wasn't that bad if he knows. Because just as I told you in my previous post, I don't mind if he knows about this as long as he doesn't bring it up. If he had the same feeling, he will come forward. If he doesn't, he will remain silent. And as long as none of us bring it up, nothing could go worse. We can still be friend. We can.
For having this feeling for someone is our absolute right. For not having our feeling returned equally, is their absolute right. No one is wrong and no one is right. However, no matter how genuine you think your feeling are, never ever let your feeling to control your action. Keep your mind sane! Do not let your feeling take over your logical and relevant-ness
Love and stay in love