"kak, what happens if he knows that you like him? he is your best friend, wouldn't it damage your friendship? it will be super awkward, doesn't it?" I looked at her who worried if things like that happened to me, because she knows how much this man dear to me and being treated like a stranger if he ever happened to know about my feeling is sure the most hurting.
But I never afraid if he knows about my feeling. The one who insist of not telling is me, because I afraid if he knows that I like him, he will feel uncomfortable to be around me but none of my feelings towards him is untrue. So, if he happened to know, be it.
The only prove that valid is when that very "i like you" come out from my own mouth. He cannot simply assume by listening to other people's stories. I believe he is matured enough not to judge people by other people saying. And I know, he is not type of guy who will come and ask me whether or not the news he heard is true.He will never come to me and ask me whether or not I like him. He is just that kind of guy. The most he would do, is let it be.
So unless, he or me say anything towards each other, anything else wouldn't be a problem. So as long as he never brought up the issue, I think we both can still be a friend.
And, to like him and to have feelings towards him is my absolute right. But I also know that to not returning the same feeling is his absolute right. So, if we both can respect each other's right, nothing happened will ever affecting us. However, I know the fact, that no matter how good our friendship are, once he has found her women, I will need to let him go -- as a man, and also as a friend.
At the end, I know, I couldn't have him, either as a man or as a friend.
Love
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