Do you know when did I first feel like a
senior? it wasn't when I became a 'welcoming orientation week' (wow)
facilitators. It wasn't when I got so many juniors asking me for my books. It
wasn't when I had seen many new faces calling me 'kak'. And it wasn't when I
see my exam slip which indicated which semester I am. I first started to feel
that I am a senior when I am playing tennis in the evening while the others are
all going back for their mid-semester break. I feel like I am so old and not
enjoy holiday as much as I am when I was in semester one. Although it has been
quite some time since I last met my family and get really homesick, but that's
when I feel like a senior.
I noticed that I become more expressive (through my face
obviously!), I am master of that already. Before this either I bottle up all
inside or I say it at once but I no longer do that. I become more expressive in
showing my feeling but won’t talk about it at once. Some of my friend failed to
read me and the best thing they could do is to leave me until I cooled down but
I don’t want that!! This is why girls are complicated. I once thought I am not
going to complicate things.
During my senior year, I am a student representative, I working part time, I playing tennins for one months and walking around campus if I got time and mostly involved in so many activities which make me feel like my room is a hotel -- I came back just to change. And I spend my student life pretty much outside the campus to run for the events. I joined so many leadership program (paksarela) but all information received is benefiting me, so I am all good to go. As for academic achievement, final year project is one tough fella. However, I managed to get into Made in Mimet (a yearly competition on presenting the ideas or a project) and won silver for that. And by joining that, my supervisor promise me an A for final year project, hence, a relieve.
So many things happened that make me so grateful and thankful. Allah already bless me with a supportive family and now he bless me with good friends around me who stay with me in any condition I am. To my dear roommate, Qi -- she is one in thousands. Always taking care of me even she is much smaller than me. For Hawa and Sha which make my life imperfect without, how would I thank them for everything they have done for me. and for all the boys who stay despite of my bad temperamental and unpredictable emotion -- it such a roller coaster ride kind of year.
I have so much fun and good birthday celebration too!! so hey, let me tell you this, the closing of the year is ------ FINAL EXAM RESULT.
All praises to Allah for the good reason even I am not satisfied with it. Hey, unsatisfactory is really important to enhance your skill okay!, improve your weakness and fix the problems. However, I am still grateful for giving me totally what I deserve because I know just how much my effort is for something that big. I didn't work hard enough. I am being too playful all the time. I can go watch movie the day before final exam start and what do I expect? An A+ for my result?? Hhaha. It is true that Allah will grant you up to your effort only, that is why if you cannot understand when reading it once, do it twice or thrice, because some how, HE gonna help you through. HE is the MASTER of this life, don't you think HE can do that tricky magic easily -- kun fayakun -- be so be it.
So, all in all. Have a good day everyone. I am not writing this because I only had good time only. Of course there are ups and downs in everything but as a human being, that is not what we should focus on. When Allah has decided it for you, accept it wholeheartedly and beg for HIS mercy to open our eyes and heart to see and to understand the reason behind all these. Maybe we cannot accept it today or tomorrow but surely Allah's gift will never disappoint us.
THE END
p/s - is it too long?