Is it wrong if you feel likes you are not belong? Last three years when I had my internship during diploma, I don't really enjoy it either but it never suffocate me like this. Back then, there is also a boss I don't like to meet who is Big Fat Amy (not the one in pitch perfect but Malaysian BFA), but it never makes me feel this lonesome, never make me feel like can-we-stop-this-and-fast-forward-time-to-the-day-i-end-my-internship-presentation.
Currently I am desperately looking for a new placement. Of course near my home, why? because when I get stress at work then I can go back home to get my cure -- family. awww, I know I am sweet. But that's the thing, no one is replying and I started to realize that I need to console myself and be prepared to face this for six more month -- i feel like dying --
Every single day, I am asking Allah, if this is what He wants for me, then please put my heart at ease and lend me the strength so I could face my super bossy supervisor who asked me to wash his mug, bought him milo ais and foods!! But if Allah pity His poor servant and does not want to see me crying all day and night for the rest of six month, I pray hard so Allah give me another placement for internship.
Yes, stress is everywhere, but I cannot work with someone who is not professional who keep yelling at me because he has fight with his girlfriend, and because none of what I did was right in his eyes. Even when I typing the keyboard, he will ask what I am typing -- like?? don't you have work to do??
The first thing he says to me on my first day via whatsapp is --''do not come late, we start sharp at 8am'', ewah ewah, I never saw him coming earlier then 9am. And if big boss go outstation, the latest he will come to the office is at 10am. Applause.
Huh. Ranting about him is bad. but I don't know what should I do. I could really really be depressed if this continue.