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Kita diuji atas sebab.

There must be a reason.

Sekecil apa pun ia, mesti ada.

Sama ada to increase our faith in him, 

untuk menilai tahap kebergantungan kita

terhadap Dia, 

atau 

sebagai punishment/kifarah atas dosa-dosa kita.

Remember when we were young, 

kita selalu dimomokkan dengan 

disiplin ilmu yang mana, 

kalau kau buat jahat hari ni, 

esok anak kau akan buat jahat yang sama pada kau. 

but of course, this won't explain everything as a whole,

but it's true right. 

Now that we are growing up, kita dah mula nampak 

setiap satu perbuatan kita, mula datang kepada kita.

sebab tu aku pening kepala. 

sebab when He tested me, 

I don't know whether it is to increase my faith or to punish.

sebab our reaction for both of it will be different -- i think 

(please, please correct me)

For example; 

I had bad temper when I was young, erm of course I'm still young today, 

but I mean when I was younger, I had temper and it was pretty bad.

I put my effort to tame it, to improve myself to a better version of me, 

I focusing on my betterment and now, my temper has slowly cools down.

I like, really cool now, ya know. 

And now, I am working with a supervisor who had such temper and worst moody type.

He treats me according to his mood and worst, he's too lazy that he even ask me to throw 

the rubbish for him.

Now I was like, confused. Because now I experience what I ever made others to experience,

and yeah, it feels bad and now I feel bad!! That's why, I have decide to face it all, 

because I think I deserve it, because I think I shall be punish for it, so I let it be.

But as time passed, I eventually feels like this is too much. 

I feel like this is not my problem! the problems comes from my supervisor who doesn't know

how to control his emotion. And I feel like Allah wanted to tell me something, 

that I must fight, that I must change this situation - not complaining all the time.

so I feels like challenge him by withdrawing myself from the company, because this will affect their reputation as corporate company, but I do not want to do that, because both of the bosses are kind to me.

I just don't know. 

If you had any idea or opinions, feel free to drop on comment box!

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