When you leave,
I feel lonely.
and that makes me wonder,
did I depend on you
too much?
because suddenly I feel like
there is no one I can talk to.
I miss you. I could say that.
Because my heart is dying
trying to deny it.
I try my best to forget you.
I do many things to distract
myself from thinking about
you.
I tell myself that,
one fine day, I'll meet s'one
else.
Someone that suit me better
than you.
But, it's funny when my head
doesn't really obey.
Even at the time I really busy,
my works will remind me to you.
Like everything that I do everyday,
will remind me to you.
because,
there is always something that will remind me to you.
Is that even possible?
I will regret writing this for sure,
if you not turn to be my husband
at the end.
And I will laughing at myself,
and also need to ask forgiveness
from my husband because talking
about other man, before I met him.
But what can I really do?
I bragging a lot about you,
to my dearest one.
I talked about you a lot.
I compliment you a lot.
I do tell all that to others.
I really like to share everything
about you to others.
I also wonder why.
Are you have become my obsession?
*geleng
I am scared to tell you
what I really feel/think about you.
Because real "love story" began
after married.
I am glad that I ever know you.
and it will be good if we are meant to
each other.
But the one who are meant to me is
far more greater than you, I am sure.
I'll meet more people any way.
My journey is long way to go.
So, if not ever once you think about me
as much as I think about you,
than I hope, what I feel will not thrown
me down.
I hope, this kind of experience will mature me
and shape me into a young-sophisticated-lady.
No matter how far we are, we are still looking at the same stars
And till our eyes meet again.
Because I have strong instinct that we'll
meet again.
When the time comes,
let say 'hi' for one more time.
Thank you.