Pagi tadi terjaga awal. 

Selalu mama yang akan kejut, 

tapi aku faham - mama penat. 

Sending off your mother for one last time 

is hard for everyone. 

So, I didn't knock mama's door. 

But not long after, mama woke up. 

Finding me at hall, mama asked, "why you didn't woke me up?" 

I smiled. 

Around 6.15am, I told her that 

I need to depart now, or else 

I couldn't make to arrived at JB in 2 and half hours. 

Baby got exam today. 

She has missed two papers yesterday, 

(grandma's death) 

We came back home from grandma's place quite late. 

She didn't even have time to study. 

I know she's tired too. 

So, what ever her result would be this time, 

I believe she will be forgiven for it. 

Kimi had really high fever. 

His gegendang telinga retak, 

regarding to Doc Kevin's advisse.  

When people fall sick, they easily got mad. 

So does he. 

I do feel pity for him but what could I do. 

I pray to Allah that he will recover very soon. 

Ayah and Kak Farah too, must be really tired. 

They didn't send me off really well today. 

Not like usual. 

But ayah, he still pull himself together and come out.

Looking at me from the door. Not even waving. 

Just sending me off with his eyes. 

I love him, so much. 

I don't know why I write this. 

All in all, I just feel so sad yet so relieve. 

but when I arrived at office, suddenly I feel so stressed. 

I really want to get mad at someone. 

Ha, forget to tell. 

On my way to JB, I stopped at R&R Machap. 

Because I feel so sleepy. 

I could't drive with closed I, can I? :p 

Because of that, 

I arrived a bit late. 8:56am (around that time la). 

okay back to the story, 

I feel so angry. 

Fara asked me so nicely, "am I okay" 

I showed her sign okay with my fingers. 

She also asked me what to eat today, 

I tell her, "I don't know" 

Usually we will order something at JB Home Food Delivery 

to deliver lunch box to our office. 

I got so much pain in my head. 

I think masuk angin. 

I feel like my head gonna burst and my brain will scattered. 

So I tell her that I wanna go back home. 

I feel guilty at some point. 

Because I'm leaving her - and not even care what she will have for lunch. 

I grab my car key and drive back home. 

As I open my room's door, I lay down. 

I woke up after hearing azan zuhr. 

Am very lucky for renting at an apartment near masjid. 

But that is it, my pain does not really go away anyway. 

Going back to office at 2pm. 

Fara wasn't at her desk.

Her car was not in the park to. 

Idk where she goes. 

and I didn't ask when she arrive. 

We do our own works - not speaking, joking like yesterdaysss. 

I know I shouldn't get overwhelmed too much with my own unstable emotion. 

Around 5pm, I google chat her. 

Say something silly like usual. 

Haha. 

Then, here comes back the laugh I actually missed. 

We decide what we will have for our lunch box tomorrow. 

So I am looking forward a better day tomorrow. 

Till here. 

I really missed my parents and siblings right now. Feeling so homesick.