To Macca they go

Assalammualaikum and hi, *smiley *smiley *smiley. Lot of things happen within this past week. 

Starting with a lot of stress at workplace, which make me decide not to work here once I finish my studies and because of that amount of stress, I am thinking about working very very very hard just to ensure that I will not work under people. I want to be a boss, with my bossy attitude, I think that big elegant exclusive chair really suite me well. Hhaha :p 

But that is not all you know, even if I want to be a boss, I will need to start from the ground. Only that way will teach me how to appreciate my position later on. I mean, as a boss, I must how people under me do their work and of course as a boss, I must know how to do it at a first place. That is why, this amount of stress will be a good lesson for sure. And as I looking back at it, I guess, I will face more in the future right? I can't stay in my comfort zone like forever. 

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Last Saturday, I went to Kelana Jaya, sending off my parents to perform their Haji at Macca. O Allah, how I wish I could be there with them. Ayah had told my siblings and I that, insyaAllah if the business goes well, we  (a whole family) will go there to perform umrah/haji together. I pray to Allah that He will answered that prayer.

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah who helped us in our matters. Mama ayah were in KT01, the first batch who will fly and they went to Madinah. The moment kaki mereka melangkah masuk kedalam gate, ada satu rasa which I don't know how to describe. Satu perasaan yang sayu and syahdu. Satu perasaan yang meletakkan aku dalam keadaan redha tanpa rela. 

Sending off your loved one sure wasn't easy. Seeing my little siblings cries have melt my cold heart, but I am sure couldn't so much kan? I am a big sister, a reason for them to be stronger. I cry too but not as lot as baby and Kimi. Of course they will cry a lot, they spend most of their times with mama ayah. And they are the youngest, of course they feel so sad. And as for Kak Farah, she is the eldest. Her responsibility towards her siblings is really big. She said, I will be the hardest to tame. Having a head which is hard like stone is not easy tho :p 

I grow old, but my sister- she never stop worry about me. And leaving her doing all that responsibilities during our parents absent really put me in pain actually. I mean, I really want to help her, to stay beside her during this time but she is the person who do it all. Time just nor fit perfectly for me to do that. 

I hope mama and ayah will be just fine and can focus performing their ibadah. And if they go semata demi Allah, then I should redha. Always pray the best, where ever they are. 

p/s: bila jarak menjauhkan, yakinlah doa itu mendekatkan.