my lyfe in here isn't so good

I feel like crying like now, but I can't.
I've promised not to cry like a baby.
I've promised that I'll no longer let tears touch my cheek.

I hate it.
I hate it here.
I don't like to be here -- in MIMET.
I don't like it, I wish I can quit.
I don't like the staffs, managements and lecturers.
*some of them

They're really sucks! *excuse my tongue 

I'm so easily caught up in stress.
Because I don't like it here.
I just don't like it here.

-- I am not okay, okay --

Students are the biggest crowd of client one may have,
who you should take a good care of them as much as
you want to take care of your ventures and investors.
Is it because we seem use less to you that you treat us
like a kid?

Yes, we are still young but we're not a little kid!
Even if we're a little kid, you should mind your manner.
After all, what you're doing is business and you should
respect your clients no matter how young, immature or childish they are.

-- my soul is crying silently --

Currently I am working with IIIP department,
so basically, I am a temporarily staff at UniKL Mimet.
I know my limit and basically I am type of person who know to stand on the ground.
I know my place very well.

I never enter staff rooms as I like before.
I always asking for permission and waiting for it.
Now, that I've entitled as staff, so I've right to get access into certain rooms in Mimet.

Here, how the story goes.
I opened the staff room, calling for Kak Syera.
I just stand in front of the door.
So, sudden, there is one staff saying this
"Lepas ni jangan masuk bilik ni eh. Nampak tak dekat pintu tu tulis apa?"
I just nodded my head and smile.

You know what I hate most?
People who love to attack me without asking me first!
I never go over the limit okay!
He made me feel really bad.
Then I just get out from the room.

-- hatred want to win too --

But then again,
after having my lunch and meeting with Kak Ain,
I was bumped into this officer.
I smiled at him. He smiled back.
*I'm professional anyway !!

But one thing I like about this officer is that he's so frank.
He say what he need to say and pappp. 
I know, he's not favor me.
He's not acting like that with his favorites students.
I am just not lucky to not be one.
I guess, if he can let me know him a little bit more and if
he can acknowledge my abilities a little bit more, we can make a good team.

But guess what? Not everything will fall in my way.

So till here, and still feeling so sad!!