In the midst of hardship

Do you ever feel so restless,

so heartbroken for no reasons?

Do you ever feel so useless 

that you really wanna cry?

Do you ever feel so tired, 

you wanna stop?

Cause I do now

evening thought

will we, 

for the sake of love, 

sacrifice everything?

for I don't feel like I would, 

for I know how selfish I am.

Outstanding Award

There is so much to say about 

OUTSTANDING AWARD 2017,

however, I will keep it for last.

will updating soon!

for now, lets enjoy the low quality picture 

that have been taken from my instagram link.

gonna replace it with the good one later 

(if I remember)

be it witch or snow white, 

a pure heart can be a devil,

  

There is a tale about a witch who can be friend with a princess

 too close yet too far,

these dearies one

Queen of the throne

Crushed and soon to be boyfriend, my srk *wink

 favorites who makes life imperfect without

Made In Mimet (MIM 2017)

December 5, 2017

Among all the pictures taken, 

I look brighter in this picture, 

hope to crop all three but taking 

account the imbalance, hence, I posted this one.

"I want your life" she said, 

looking me with that envious face 

and pout as she is having hard time now.

Dear sweetheart, 

I only shows you my good time 

and seal those scary thoughts, sleepless night, pale faces, 

medicines I'm taking, and aches all around.

as for received something,

you must let go something in return.

and me?

I am letting go of something precious.

my love.

"Eddie won bronze, I won silver, 'Irfan won gold & Aril? he won Ila's heart"

BMO Family

Every semester, 

bbq night is a must,

at least for my classmate.

People says our bond

is so strong and that we're very close to one another.

Obviously, we didn't advertise what had happened in our circle,

but at least we know what other people picture about us.

and it is good, being saw in 'togetherness spirit'

that's not the point, really.

the things is, I realise, how cliche it is, 

it was one of the thing that keep us together,

no matter how apart will we be in the future.

to organize and to make things happened, 

we need to be one,

have fun and feel the moment tho, 

I'm pretty satisfied,

but there is always, always..

things happened which spoiled the happy day,

and I don't really enjoy the night.

not because of the foods or the games, 

but maybe because of myself. 

things running wild in my head 

and what else can I do beside sitting down 

and think!

but for me, 

no matter how bad our mood are, 

be responsible with other people's feeling,

acknowledge those who were affected by our action, 

and for being such an ignorance one is being so selfish!

because this semester is my last,

that's why I'm being sulky,

because this semester is my last,

that's why I hate if someone ruin it.

and may the family 

stay together 

until the last.

I hope,

I pray.

Ohana Journee

Things are all well in my head,

I had planned everything, 

it's all in my mind.

but the thing is.

when it isn't go as I planned, 

that's when I feel like

being crushed by an airplane.

knowing him had someone 

and am still working is driving me nuts,

I cannot focus as the news 

came as in tiba-tiba,

and it struck me like a bullet train.

but work is work.

personal reasons must be kept as personal.

I am glad that I am working it out

and really rocking with the team!

as an emcee of the night, 

I know I was lame, 

trying to be funny but I can't

but I tried.

but end up looking like a fool.

ah! don't care.

He had someone else

Now that he is not available, 

most of the thing have changed. 

or perhaps should be changed.

the way I treat myself for anything 

relating to him.

Allah give the answer in the softest way possible

and I couldn't thank much enough for that.

And trying to be as normal as my normal days, 

Sha realize that I am not being myself since I knew about it, 

but hey, what a good feeling knowing someone 

know you better than anyone else.

I ever say,

that if he's happy with his life,

that it will be enough for me.

Hence, I officially close the story.

ofVale&Project

October 11, 2017

I'll remember the date and time,

and I wish I could have forget it all,

why? because every memory with you in it is a pain.

however, you are among memory that 

could never be deleted,

why? because you are, 

FINAL YEAR PROJECT

you have sucked my money, 

consume my time and energy, 

going forth and back, 

having headache and butterflies, 

Now that I am indebted to Vale 

for their good service and cooperation, 

I'll now rest assure.

Strategic Planning Workshop

October 7. 2017

again sorry, for the cropped photo

To work very hard and

still being misunderstood is normal.

Do sort of things which sometimes

beyond our job scope is normal.

Getting tired and being mocked by people is normal.

I wished to change this normality,

so people could understand, 

that it wasn't easy sitting in this position.

but it was impossible to make 

everyone understand how it feels to be in your shoes, 

but it was okay, it wasn't the end of the world, 

because for every money you spend, 

for every energy you contributed, 

Allah will count it all.

After all, the experience you received, 

it is something you cannot get at other place, 

hence. be grateful and keep fighting, 

for a future leaders in MIMET.

Stay strong SRC 2018/2019, your senior wishing you the best!

Kimi's

October 2, 2017

A boy who is hurting so much inside.

A boy who barely bottle up everything inside.

A boy who cried the most

for being strong for such a long time.

You will always be my baby boy.

For bear with everything that fall upon you, I am sorry for you.

For being strong along the way, I am thanking you.

Now that you are slowly prepared to face a bigger world ahead of you.

So, darling, put your defenses up.

I won't always be there to protect you.

When that times comes, you must stand up and protect yourself. 

You might get hurt again and again, 

but by time, it will soothing. trust me.

Kakak love you, lillah.

Happy Birthday

Color Run, Marey Carnival

October 1, 2017

"We had joy, we had fun,

we got seasons in the sun,

but the wine and the song,

like the seasons have all gone"

                                 - Westlife 

A dream team is not a dream,

if we could give our all.

when we know our responsibility,

and when we know the weight of it, 

we will do it just right. 

and remember, 

what is right for us, 

may not be right for the others, 

hence, be modest, be considerate and be rational

in making any decision.

an event is a success

not only because of the leaders

but because of the doers.

the committee that were in together.

I'll dearly remember

those sleepless night

and "flours party" in the office 

A play in games isn't a foul.

Wacana Pemikiran Universiti Kuala Lumpur

Politik itu bagi aku kotor, jadi aku tidak mahu tahu tentang hal-hal yang kotor. Aku penat menyaksi pemimpin2 yang disanjung menunding jari antara satu sama lain. Puas aku berfikir, tak bolehkah mereka memerintah bersama, tanpa ada parti. Wujud satu organisasi, dimana mereka semua menyokong satu perdana menteri. Maksudku menyokong disini adalah mendukung dan berpayung dibawah satu pemerintahan seorang ketua. Meski mereka tak perlu sering bersetuju dalam setiap perkara. Namun itu terlalu ambitious, sebab aku lupa, yang nak jadi ketua bukan satu dua. Masing2 tamak haloba berebut kuasa - dan itu aku tak suka. Dan aku rasa itu yang buat anak-anak muda rasa letih dengan politik. 

Bayangkan saja, menteri2 pun tak aku kenal. Datuk Jamal yang bertuala depan suk tu pun aku tak pernah tahu siapa sampailah di Program Wacana Pemikiran Universiti Kuala Lumpur. Aku paling tak mahu pergi program yang berunsurkan politik ni. Sebab aku rasa, kami ini para mahasiswa dicari bila perlu, diguna bila mahu. Nanti bila habis PRU, kami ini ditinggal sepi, macam terikat tapi tak bertali (cewah) 

Banyak menteri2 yang dipanggil - aku tak kenal siapa, tapi melalui program ini aku tahu siapa mereka. Yes, the program is 100% politik. Terpulang bagaimana you take it. Bagi aku, this program dah membangunkan aku. 

Wacana Pemikiran Nadi Rakyat

September 11. 2017

sorry for the cropped potatoes

"Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not" 1:216

Politic may be suck,
but that is now our responsibility to make it right.
how? by using our power.
how? through voting.
how? register!

and bear in mind,
being in two opposite side doesn't make us enemy,
it doesn't define wrong or right, 
because everyone had their right to stand out for their opinions,
however, be modest in everything.

it is okay if you don't like it,
but it was not okay if you swear and curse at it,
use proper language,
watch your tongue,
afterall we are all human beings. be kind. 

To the clueless person ever,

How can we stay as friend when what I feel will do a mess? I like you. 

When I am happy or sad, you are among the earliest people I want to talk to, but I am afraid if I do that, this feeling would show and you will know. I afraid that if you know about it, you would start to keep your distance because a girl like me is a type - no one will like.

Hence, whatever I did in the public, you will always be the last. When I mentioned my friends' name, you will always be the last. For I want to show the world that I am not thinking about you so I can still having you stay by my side. I know I am stupid. What's so wrong if I just confess? It's not like I am going to keep meeting you in the future right? yeah, but I afraid -- or maybe, I am just a coward. 

Maybe, I will regret it later for not taking the chance. Maybe, I am regretting it now for just looking at the opportunities that passed, but maybe, this is the best for me and all of us, for I believe if we wait long enough, someone will still coming. And what if, I have no time to wait for that long? isn't four years long enough? 

and yeah -- I believe, if you really not meant to be with me, this feeling for you will fade and now, I am waiting for that moment to come and I hope I can feel its coming. 

Closing Ceremony SeaKL2017

I was excited, of course. This is my first time to experience such thing. Sharing the moments with more than 80,000 people in the stadium. Everytime we sang a song, it gives me goosebumps. The crowd, the spirit and the energy from everyone is encouraging each other to shout better and sing louder. At that very historical moment, I don't really care about my sumbang voice, lari pitching ke apa, because we sing our heart out. Lagipun no one is going to recognize me, huhu. 

The lighting was superb. We play 'human wave' and I was excited joining them. Having a very energetic family who were sitting in front of my line. The camera always on them everytime they cheering. The first two hours were great. But as time passed, I am waiting for more formation or gimmick that will show the togetherness of ten countries in SukanSea. But I was disappointed because that night, all that we do, is actually focusing on celebrating our independence day, which I think has make the original plan a mess. 

It is not wrong to celebrate the ambang merdeka together with other countries, we can share the joy but the only thing yang we all did during the closing ceremony is terlalu membangga banggakan our 145 gold. The vt tho, it only showing out athletes. I am hoping to see some videos of other athletes from other countries too. Maybe something like, what they portraying Malaysia in their head during the sukan sea?

But I must not forget to give an appraisal for those videos that make me cry for it really touch my hearts. Thank you for appreciating us, duta kecil Malaysia, your WAUFACTOR. After all, this is a lifetime opportunities. The next time Malaysia will be the host for Sukan Sea is in twenty years time, maybe I can go with my kids, hhaha. (not laughing at all). All in all, I was happy to be given a chance and I hope there will be more young people to serve our country sebab sedar atau tidak, it did increase our level of sayangkan negara. 

Yes, maybe ramai yang tak berbangga jadi Malaysia as for what our country is going through at the moment, but one thing for sure - if not us yang sayangkan negara kita, who else will? kalau bukan kita yang pertahankan negara kita, who else will? the political games might be suck for us, but it is our responsibility to change our country, so now, lets take the responsibility by being a good human being for the society.

Thank you, assalammualaikum,

Oh, lupa nak cakap. 

actually plan awal nak ke bukit jalil naik bas dari melaka ke tbs, then ambil lrt terus ke stadium but there is change in plan, so I drive to Stadium and arrived home after the closing ceremony at 4.30am. Memang gagahkan mata juga untuk sampai ke rumah. Betullah orang kata, kalau dah selalu drive jauh, satu jam setengah perjalanan dah tak rasa apa. Tapi esoknya tu memang barai habis lah. Hhaha

Journey for Chicken Butter

It happened on the day we arrived at MFI, 

I saw kingafiq tweeted about this one stall and he recommended it. 

So I scrolled down looking for a bit for information 

and asking my friends to have our dinner there.

so, around 6pm we walked around looking for this stall, 

ofc we jalan kaki as the tweet mention "sebelah unikl bangi",

but we go around sampai sesat. 

so here the screenshot-ed story. 

however tak jumpa pun, 

so we pasrah and makan je

dekat kedai berhampiran 

and quite disappointed sebab tiba2

rasa makan azra (kedai sebelah mimet) lagi sedap dan berbaloi.

but, alhamdulillah, Allah bagi rezeki, dapat makan. 

On 19 August, I didn't joined for opening ceremony, 

sebab I was on my pms and I am not fit enough to stay late at night, 

so I decide to take the morning shift which ended at 12pm. 

After that, I asked Dev and the rest to go look for chicken butter 

and once again, we failed! haha!!

This time sampai terlajak keluar tol semula. That was funnneyhh.

So ending all the hope, I have stopped looking for the chicken butter 

and make puyuh butter instead. 

hhhaha, ok, ignore the pickup line. 

eh, it wasn't pick up line pun at the first place. 

It is just a general question. 

answer it if you want to.

ignore it if you do not want to. 

So, finally I ended my own craving 

by cooking it by myself. 

No wonder my mom always ask me to belajar masak, 

so we can eat anything that we want, anytime.

love mama <3

Sea Kuala Lumpur 2017

To be part of history is a great feeling. 

This is a lifetime opportunity that I won't let go. 

To make it short, I apply for volunteer post for sea kuala lumpur 2017. 

The training were executed right after my final exam,

that was on 12 & 13 July at UKM, Bangi.

So, after the two days training, 

I got one t-shirt, yang we all pakai dalam first gambar tu, 

and also cert sebab those yang tak attend training will not qualified 

to be the volunteer. 

On 28th July, we check in hostel,

register for new semester, 

and attending classes yang macam ada tak ada, 

sebab still miggu drop and add subject lagi, 

and on 12th August we depart to UniKL MFI.

Our post adalah untuk archery.

We have more than eighty volunteers for archery, 

and below adalah team 'jaga tong air' and this is not all. 

satu tong oren yang letak ais tu, empat orang jaga - kau rasa? 

Hahah, yeah, it is funny and seem like tak ada kerja sangat kan, 

but as a volunteer, we need to look around and help 

anyone in need. 

 

so sepanjang jadi volunteer, 

macam macam juga aku dah buat. 

From standing still beside the tong, 

angkut botol air besar 5l, dari store ke khemah, 

tolong budak2 field crew tukar target, 

cabut paku, 

etc etc. 

 

 and the best experience adalah sebab get to know the athletes. 

they are so nice and humble. 

they even offer me to come closer and look at the target 

from their so mahal teropong. 

we cheer really hard to support them and I witness their struggle. 

so, those yang cakap "alah tak menang" "alah, itu pun tak reti",

now you go and try to shoot from 50m far. 

The most humble and cute one!

Fatin Fateha

With the manager and abang sado. huhu. 

This one in for compound team.

Tak sempat nak tangkap dengan recurve team, 

sebab recurve cepat sangat. 

in a blink of eyes, dah habis dah. 

 actually a lot more happened during nine days in Sukan Sea, 

a lot story to tell and I am glad if anyone would want to hear that. 

Until the next post.

School 2012

Friendship is very mysterious, 

it full of surprises.

and along the way of you growing up,

there are so much more to learn,

learn from your very own mistakes and also friend's.

you know what makes life beautiful?

it wasn't the beginning or the ending

but the content between it.

and how did you content yourself?

who you content your life with?

friendship is beautiful, you know why?

no. not because of the flowery path, the jokes and the laugh,

but because of the fall and the raise,

for the pain and the bless, 

the flower once tilt, has now blooming again.

and for every relationship that you're in 

which you do for the sake of Allah,

Allah will bless you with countless awards,

in various ways you wouldn't ever imagine.

you won't need that 24 hours to be called friend,

your name in someone's prayer is.

someone's e-day

I wonder what makes a relationship last forever. 

I wonder how a man and a woman can agreed to share their life together. 

I couldn't get it how one can sacrifices so much for the other. 

I mean, I know it was because of love, 

but how love can always turn a wise man into a fool?

No. I am not denying love.

I just curious how we could lost our sense when we are in love.

is it love after all?

I don't know how one heart could bear so much pain for the dearly 'someone',

how people could turn a blind eye for the sake of love, 

and how one could easily forgive a mistakes for their loved one, 

knowing the mistakes will soon be repeated.

but maybe. just maybe.

love is the answer to everything.

because love is love.

it has no exact definition that could describe it as a whole.

but sometimes, for the sake of love, some people become cruel.

"Happy e day. Wishing you guys the best in your relationship and may Allah bless your journey to your upcoming wedding on August 2018. Stay loyal and faithful to each other, gonna ship you guys from a far"

Industrial Exposure

Suck! That was my first impression after the IE briefing.Macam nak terbalik dewan kuliah (dk) dengan suara suara tak puas hati daripada students. Less than five weeks, management (mgt) asking us to look for any company untuk buat attachment. The most ridiculous part is - any job will do even cleaning the toilet which hundred percent tak related dengan our scope of study. Yang tambah bengang student tu, sebab the purpose of this IE thingy is for promoting the university. It seems so. Like, anywhere you go, when you mention unikl, the whole world will know "ohh, that uni aaa". Huh. So, regardless what management had to say, everything sounds wrong to us - the student who currently have been forced to involved in many programs we did not want to. 

So, taking advantage - I am working with my dad. Do the house chores, watching tv, cooking, eating and sleeping. In return, I got the stamp! It goes easy for me, that is why I couldn't say much about it because I feel like I am cheating while others are working really hard to complete the IE program. These fella, I ask Allah to bless them and give them the success as they really deserve it. Oh, forget to tell, what makes students mad the most is because this program will be executed during our two weeks semester break for 14 days. Dalam erti kata lain, after final exam, we will go for IE, then terus masuk new semester. In much more simpler and hurtful words, NO CUTI!! for this semester. 

I know there is always a loop to improve and I know our institution is working at their best to provide the best services to their students. However, it would be so great if they are not using the students as the experiment as it is not them who will bear the consequences. It won't be a problem if they told us earlier, at least we are well prepared - you know, siapa nak amik kerja untuk two weeks time? kfc pun reject. so most of us, either tak buat or join catering. Our education system is quite a mess right now, but maybe it was a sign of improvement - we don't know. However, I really hope, our future generation could enjoy systematic system in their education. 

Thank you, assalammualaikum.

A surprise

Girls tend to surprise on little things, 

don't know how boys will react,

but this is what happened last night. 

Hawa went home (jb) for her friend's wedding, 

and I supposed to fetch once she come back for mimet (lumut) at bus station, 

but I've promised to come over to my cousin's place 

for Hari Raya.

I asked ustad to help us. 

I informed Hawa that I am not available, 

and Ustad will fetch her instead of me. 

Then I received message from my cousin

that this weekend activity was postpone to another date. 

Then, I am thinking on surprising Hawa.

I planned to come along with Ustad.

The thing is, 

I just bought a new toy, 

a foundation

and two-lipstick. 

idk, lately I've develop an interest 

on make up thingy. 

(influenced by my roommate, haha, she's to be blame)

so, i try it out. 

I want to show Hawa 

how I did my make up 

for the first time. 

I didn't think either ustad or rosya will notice it 

as we're going out at night, 

and after that we'll go to night market,

which ofc, I will not walk with them, 

so I think it's alright...until...

ustad and rosya is actually 

planning to eat with the whole bunch 

of the troublemaker brats!

ipe, aril bob all were there! 

and the worst part is -- we're nott going to pasar malam

but eat at restoran! so i need to face them la kan? 

omaigad!!

ok, back to Hawa story. 

when we arrived, Hawa already waiting. 

she didn't notice me in the car,

and she's so surprised that I was there, 

yeah, i got bruises on my hand -- she slap me hard!! 

gonna tell my mom about it soon!! c(:

so - she is surprised. 

and I suoer surpised, 

for it was embarrassing wearing make up 

in front of your friends who you show your bare face to 

okay, this one out of topic.

yesterday, I've tried out mc flurry salted caramel and it was tasty!! nyumnyum

ok bye, till here

Final Exam January 2017

It's already close to the end of this semester, means that I have another one semester to attend before I off for internship. Back then, during diploma years, I am so happy and excited that I will finish this early and fast furious, however things does not goes the same way with degree. One thing is because I won't do my internship together with my batch-mate, second is because I know, once I go for internship, the chances for me to meet all my friends is low.

I know everyone will go their way someday -- but still the thought of it is making me sick! 

Ok, back to my original story - final exam. So this evening, I have sat for my first paper - marketing. Honestly I don't really know what to read and I didn't study much because the notes are quite messy. I can't say that it was easy but I wouldn't say it is hard because alhamdulillah I can answer the question and I know every answer for every question they asked, but I do not know whether or not my answer is acceptable. complex enough? haha

tomorrow i have no paper but need to get ready for paper on thursday and friday. Good luck all

the last smile she gives

She has stopped to care. 

Not because she has stop loving. 

No. because the feeling for him still lingering. 

She has stopped to protect her feeling, 

because she's tired of getting abused by his ignorance. 

She couldn't blame him for being clueless,

as there is no cure for that.

But there is no other way round, 

she found no one but herself to depend on. 

That is why, 

this time she chooses to stop and leave,

for she believe 

if he has the same feeling, 

he will gather the courage and start once again.  

She never stop trying, 

but she wanted to see how much he ever tried,

to really have that special relationship. 

Of course, she will tick tock the time, 

until then, she'll be watching him, 

until the time end, 

she'll close the book and fly far away.

Movie Review: Paa

This is a story about father-son relationship and the true definition of strong woman (one of la). 

Armol Arte (Ambhishek Bachan) has always wanted to be a politician. His mission is to

change people's mindset that "politic" is not a bad word! He wanted to be a 'clean' politician who will really work for its people. When he study abroad, he met with this beautiful girl named Vidya. They fall in love and make love **where is my marah emoticon**

Vidya pregnant and Armol asked her to abort their child. Vidya refused and she is lucky to have her mum, bum who supported her. I like Bum character. She know that her daughter makes mistakes, but things happened and there is no use to get mad at her or chasing her out from home, together -- they try to make their life happier. A son was born but he was diagnosed with extremely rare genetic disorder, pageria -- where mentally he's normal but physically he looks five times older. 

But still. despite all bad news that Vidya received, he took care for her son! giving all that she can. She never feel ashamed on Auro, instead - she provide him with the best education,. I love to see the kids at Auro's school, how sweet and innocent they are. They accept Auro is different from them but never once they treat Auro any less. That is what we should promote to our children.

Auro never know who his father is. After 14 years, Armol Arte has become a well-known politician. He came to Auro's school for an event and there, they both meet without knowing their relationship. Things happened and Auro's eventually know the truth. He's disappointed with his dad but still, he wants to spend time with his father.

However, those with pageria couldn't survive long. The longest ever lived with this disease was 15 years old. Auro was admitted to hospital and there, Armol met Vidya after 14 years. Now, Armol want to admit that Auro is his son. The part that he can accept his son's weakness is very good because not many parents who has high social class will accept kids like Auro but still -- he is the one who decide to kill Auro [hish! benci] 

Auro died, but before he leaves the world forever, he unite his parents once again. I don't know whether or not Vidya still love Armol as she did treat him well because of Auro but if I am Vidya, I will not get back to him. 

rate: 7/10

of letting go and move on

Having you around is not easy, 

I get confused everytime, 

either to walk away or to run into your arms.

Not having you around is tough,

for I afraid that you'll look at another girl, 

for I afraid that will be the beginning of how we'll end.

- @farhannakarim

she'll leave

Not everyone you proud of

to be in your life,

will feel proud 

to have you in their life.

She told herself,

over and over again, 

that this world is different, 

that every single person she met

in her life is different, 

but some things are surreal. 

the reality hit hard

and the truth bite. 

To those person 

who not wanting her 

in their life, 

she pray that God 

will open their heart,

to accept her weakness 

and to understand

that she never asked to

being born in such ways.

To those person 

who hate to hear her voice, 

who never learn 

to appreciate 

what she has done, 

she will leave,

and those who not wanting her 

in their life, 

will never ever hear 

from her, again.

 

- farhannakarim

We and FYP 1

 

The struggle is real and work-smart paid off. Can you imagine how devastated I may feel when my laptop charger meletup during I finishing my fyp's slide? In the same time, I'm working on my innovation assignment, which should be a group assignment but i did it all alone? - not anyone mistake but mine as I'm not taking it seriously padahal the assignment has been distribute a month before the date.

Being the only girl from NMIT for BMO 12TH batch be like; - being the only girl in every picture, haha. Some people mistook me for having special relationship with one of them but nah, they are all not available anymore. Those who interested in caras mencaras can meet me, so I can sampaikan hasrat you all, but please expect to be rejected.

#roadtofinal #roadtofyp2 #roadtofinalyear

Sayang Raya 2017

Raya has become less and less fun when you grow up. We no longer fancy fireworks. We get exhausted for doing so many things like house chores, changing furniture arrangement, throwing out unused materials, and yeah -- cook the raya dishes. Not to forget, anyam daun ketupat. I bought one pair of baju kurung and I get myself one kasut raya which not really kasut raya as I need it for my FYP presentation anyway. But raya is still raya because no one ever bought so many kuih raya unless it is for hari raya, kan? and raya still raya as there is duit raya, but duit raya has become too biased. I get less and less duit raya. 

It is true that raya is only fun when you are kids and when you have kids. I have been on the first phase but not yet the second one. Huhu. As I have nothing much to say for this year hari raya, let me present you few pictures of me during raya, and how my raya looked like. [i know you are not interested, but nah] 

 First raya at rumah nenek (belah ayah, belah mak, I called makwek/pakwek - jawa)

 With family acik Shimah (the only aunty sebelah ayah), anak acik Shimah ada empat, all boys semua dah kahwin, tinggal lagi dua.

 Sebab tak ada formal family picture, ayah request one. [erm, one family photo with different2 post ofc], ni dekat rumah maklong

 the free style one

 this one with cing, the gemoks one tapi sebab aku lagi gemoks so dia nampak kecil. Haha

 see, muka tak nak raya. muka #teamrayafinal + barai gila sebab malam sebelum tu stay up very late and sambung sampai pagi and tiba2 ada orang datang. Ha, that kind of muka la. 

Raya ke-5, mak uda and acik Mira bawa jalan2 Putrajaya sebab 22 tahun aku hidup, not once aku jalan2 sini. Selalu datang rumah makuda terus balik. teringin jalan2 sebab nampak iklan Neelofa raya dekat Putrajaya. ok joke!

 

Nah, masjid besi walau hati tak cukup besi untuk hadapi semua ini - dan macam biasa, aku drama! 

Okay, that is all. Bukan tak nak upload gambar raya lagi, tapi memang ni je yang ada. Tahun ni memang tak banyak tangkap gambar sebab 

1) tak ada mood 

2) muka naik jerawat + burn teruk gilos + parut 

3) depressed exam dah dekat, satu apa tak baca

so, that is all for my raya and moga Allah sempatkan untuk jumpa Ramadhan dan Syawal 2018. 

Book Review: A Rose Petal Beach

A complicated story which plotted nicely by Dorothy Kimsoon. A story about Tami who dedicate life for her family and her life was perfect, a good husband, beautiful daughters. A well being family with cars, house and sufficient income. Everything started when her husband, Scott was handcuffed in front of their children for something terrible. The accuser is none others but her best running-friend, Mirabelle. 

Mirabelle claimed Scott for sexual harassing and raping. Scott keep denying the claim with prove that Mirabelle is actually trying to trap him for he refuse to have intimate relationship with Mirable as he won't ever cheat on his lovely wife that he love so much. Tami was confused. She didn't know whose story is the truth. However, Mirabelle know something about Scott, more that her story with Scott. 

Scott do cheat, not with Mirabelle but with Tami's friend and their close neighbor, Beatrix. Beatrix was really close with Tami's family that Tami won't get suspicious at her at all. Tami trust her - the most. In return of good deeds that Tami has done for her, Beatrix has intimate relationship with Scott. 

Things get complicated when Mirabelle was killed. Police suspect Tami for murder and yes, Tami do not have a strong alibi to prove her innocent as she was there at Mirabelle house - the night she was killed. And after knowing the relationship between Scott and Beatrix, she never be able to look at Scott the same way anymore. She couldn't forgive and forget. 

Beatrix was diagnose with incurable disease and she pledge for Tami's grace - to stay with Tami, at Tami's house. If I am Tami, I won't let Beatrix stay. I will drag her out of my door and let her die alone! Go look for Scott, the man who she willing to trade her friendship for. I won't care. but Tami wasn't me and I wasn't Tami. Tami let her stay and took care of her, accompany her to hospital, do the check up. ergh! 

Scott? they divorce.

Overall, I really love this book. the suspend and thrill. so, my rate for this book is 7/10