How can we stay as friend when what I feel will do a mess? I like you.
When I am happy or sad, you are among the earliest people I want to talk to, but I am afraid if I do that, this feeling would show and you will know. I afraid that if you know about it, you would start to keep your distance because a girl like me is a type - no one will like.
Hence, whatever I did in the public, you will always be the last. When I mentioned my friends' name, you will always be the last. For I want to show the world that I am not thinking about you so I can still having you stay by my side. I know I am stupid. What's so wrong if I just confess? It's not like I am going to keep meeting you in the future right? yeah, but I afraid -- or maybe, I am just a coward.
Maybe, I will regret it later for not taking the chance. Maybe, I am regretting it now for just looking at the opportunities that passed, but maybe, this is the best for me and all of us, for I believe if we wait long enough, someone will still coming. And what if, I have no time to wait for that long? isn't four years long enough?
and yeah -- I believe, if you really not meant to be with me, this feeling for you will fade and now, I am waiting for that moment to come and I hope I can feel its coming.