Now that he is not available,
most of the thing have changed.
or perhaps should be changed.
the way I treat myself for anything
relating to him.
Allah give the answer in the softest way possible
and I couldn't thank much enough for that.
And trying to be as normal as my normal days,
Sha realize that I am not being myself since I knew about it,
but hey, what a good feeling knowing someone
know you better than anyone else.
I ever say,
that if he's happy with his life,
that it will be enough for me.
Hence, I officially close the story.