Lately I have been haunted by this one thing in my mind.
I keep thinking about it and honestly, it sucks.
I feel like it has took my entire life and sometimes I am being so gloomy.
I hate being gloomy and I hate not being energetic for most.
Apparently I know what was that thing actually, but to share with all - nayyyy,*fingers at your face* I don't think so.
I'm not being secretive but telling people will only make me
laugh at myself and feel ashamed at the same time.
*Urghh* I don't like being in this state either.
Because I was gloomy, I tend to lose all the motivation to do works and recently when my supervisor give me task, I was complaining and refusing to do the task (not really refusing, but I am doing it without putting my heart in it) . When I am think about it again, I should not do that as I am just an internship student. I should take and accept the task as they would mark me, and of course I want to score high. Plus, the task is not something that I cannot do or out of my work's scope.
I just do the task *cincai cincai* which so not like me. and when it comes to the time I realise thing. I start thinking - what if this company is my company? would I let this kind of person stay in my company? No. of course I will not kan, !
I come to realise that no matter what ever happen inside you, never put down your commitment on works. You must carry it out with full of responsibilities. It may be hard to control your heart and behaviour at times but we must believe that our mind is great.
Urgghhh, it's hard tho. But that is what matter most, we must be strong and solid enough to defeat our old-bad-not-good-self.
"Never hand in work that you won't be proud of "
Lastly, that is all about. No matter how hard life hits you, always make a good story out of it. Cehh, sounds familiar right?
If you do it right when you are not fully in your good situation and condition, you are great. Because your works is something that will contribute in you future, so don't take it too lightly and start to take it seriously.
For now, stay motivated.