sometimes what we really wanted is the one and only thing we cannot have. 

we keep asking why. why and why?

I cry and sometimes I ask myself, 'should I be a bad girl because in movie, everyone who act bad will got what they want. Its okay lah to get a punishment. At least I get what I want."

I know, each story have their own path.

I cannot ask or refuse. 

I must believe and stay strong in any condition because situation will keep forcing and pushing. 

I always remind myself

I must be strong. I must be strong. I must be strong. I must be strong. 

please I must be strong.