Story About Independent

I can accept what are you trying to say.

I am glad knowing that you are concern, but this is not the way I want both of us tolerate.

I want you to respect my choice and to respect my decision. 

For you, I might be wrong and eventually regret it but its okay, at least I can learn something. 

Let me be independent, so that I can survive in my hard time. 

You can advise me, not control me. 

I love you and please, for this time let me through.

UNTITLED

I want to love you more than any one else do

CHL#4

we never know that it was the last meeting, 

so please be nice to all each second left for us. 

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The important thing is to not be discourage or lose hope.

Don't let anger over ride your sense or justify your wrongdoings,

we can't afford to start over. 

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In the line to achieve our ambition, we might fall for something, 

but there is always the way which let us escape.

CHL#3

Love overcome everything. 

That all I can say about someone who love someone. 

Because of love we done so much sacrifices

Because of love we expose our self for danger

Eventhough, we go through something hard but we never think to giving up

when we thought about someone we love. 

Without love, we are not born in this world seeing how 

people get better because of love and how people turn worst because of love. 

sebagai insan aku sayang padamu 

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When you are having your hard time, 

there is always someone who you can rely on. 

Unknowingly, they are the one who you cannot live without. 

CHL#2

You told to leave you, forget you and go to the time before we met and life as cool as before. 

Yet you can't send me to another man or let me stay beside you. 

That is love Nana. 

sebagai insan, aku sayang padamu

CHL#1

How hurt it is to leave someone you love who love you back but cannot be together because you don't want the one you love cry when they get hurt. 

Note To Self

sometimes I tend to do my things and you may not stand with it, 

but each things I did was just for me to train myself to be just myself. 

Note To Self

Memories doesn't change while people does. 

Everyone have a dream, even sometimes its look like ridiculous more than logical, 

Afterall, we can't get all things that we want, because others need it more than we do. 

sebagai insan, aku sayang padamu

Inside Me

I'm not good in showing my love to others.

A step Back

when you angry, stop talking and make a step back, 

don't says any words cause if you do, 

one day when you will ask yourself  'why do I did this before?'

keep your coolness

Its going to be okay

 so be strong and keep moving :)

Teguh.

Cekal. 

Dia Nabi Allah yang terakhir. 

Aku umatnya. 

Aku umatnya.

Sebelum berakhir hayatnya, yang disebut 'umati..umati..umati'

Kasih sungguh dia kepada aku sedang aku tak mampu menyintainya sebegitu rupa. 

Aku berusaha sekeras yang mungkin, untuk mencintaimu sedaya hatiku.

Terima kasih buat pengorbanmu.

Tanpamu, tiadalah aku kenal zaman ini.

Tanpamu, tiadalah Islam, agamaku kini. 

Tanpamu, tiada berakhirlah jahiliah itu.

Tanpamu, mungkin ku sudah dikuburkan hidup-hidup.

Tanpamu, maruah aku mungkin tak sebegini tinggi.

Darahmu.

Keringatmu.

Disetiap peperangan, kau membelah lautan manusia, bukan untuk dirimu tetapi untuk agama Allah, agar aku umatmu bisa hidup sejahtera. 

Bisa hidup dalam agama yang mengajarkan aku cara hidup untuk kekal di syurga yang hakiki. 

Namun, ranjau hidup sukar diduga, terkadang aku hanyut dengan fatamorgana dunia. 

Namun kau tinggalkan aku dua benda, yang aku tidak akan sessat dengannya. 

Al quran 

Sunnah

Al quran kitab Allah yang tak akan pernah lupus. Biarpun berjuta tahun lamanya, ia masih kekal memberi panduan buat yang mencari. Memberi pengertian buat yang tidak mengerti dan memberi ketenangan buat mereka yang memerlukan. 

Kepada kekasihku, Kau jagalah insan ini, insan yang mencintaiku. Salam Maulud Rasul..

NOVELS

I’m not growing up with novels. The first novel that I read was Setulus Janji (as I remember). Itupun cousins punya, Abu Umairah Amiruddin Husain. Cover hijau I thought. I already forget what the story was about but it was really interesting and Islamic. The second one is Cinta Adam dan Hawa by Aisyah Sofea, itupun not finish because, you know I’m not a good reader. I felt bored faster that I thought so its like the terbengkalai construction.

When I was 15, that was the year I truly put my passion on reading novels. I read everything in front of my eyes and not taking off for two days. I read it even mama started babbling because I let novels distract my focus on works. Heehe. The first novel that I own myself is ANDAI ITU TAKDIRNYA by SITIROSMIZAH. Best seller and it was her first novel. From there, I start collecting novels and right now it almost 50. I know, some people have hundreds but I think as penjimatan boleh dilakukan why not. So I read hundreds but I only have 50. That’s mean another novels I borrowed from friends and cousins. See, all of them pun pencinta novel jugak, so why not kita sharing right. Anyway sharing is caring meyhh. Haaha.

As I growing up, I understand. Novels can make us better person and can make us leka or alpa person. For me, novels have help me a lot in improved my vocabulary. My essays become longer and longer. That showed that I have  a lot of ideas which actually I take from each novels I ever read. Then, how can novels make us leka? Ok usually, every novels end with happy ending. The ending that most people dream about. But the fact is, not everyone meet their happy ending. We all have our own path and let ourself dragged into day dreaming about having great happy ending is not right at all. Not wrong if you hope but it’s wrong when you are to sure and you’re obsessed with that. You must let the rest to Allah when you had try your best. You must learn to accept disappointment, so that you can accept the painful truth.

Actually, happiness does not come only at the end. Throughout this journey, Allah give you happiness that you not notice or maybe because we forget to thankful to HIM. Allah give you good family even they are annoying, tak happy ker? Of course we happy right. You getting married. You happy. Your kids moving in your belly. You happy. The happiness always there, but we never realized. After all live your life and don’t waste it on something yang tak patut. Like what? Everyone have their own opinion, so I let you to determine what something yang tak patut tu. Haaha.. =)

Aaron Aziz

Heehe, he is an actor. Am I right? Before that I want to tell you guys that I’m not his fan. Before this I keep wondering about why so many girls and woman love aaron aziz so so much. I ever feel like ‘yukss, why aaron. Apa yang menarik sangat fasal dia tu? He is NOT like Colin Morgan or Bradley James yang boleh buat aku terpegun kalau ada depan mata aku right now. He’s just an actor je kot’

Yes, I watch Ombak Rindu and AdamHawa which showed that Aaron is one of romantic guy right and kasanova!! When I watch Ombak Rindu, I feel nothing. I mean, Aaron just like another man actor lah. Nothing special pun, but my perspective was changed when I watch AdamHawa.

I don’t know why, but I search about him at HENCIK GOOGLE and I found an article about him. That he bought his wife, 9 LV handbags.. Nine ok!! He said that he promised to his wife, he will bought her LV handbags for each contract he signed. Walaweyhh.. untunglah!!!

Actually I’m not interested about that LV bag cause I can buy it by myself if I want to. I mean when I already be what I want to be lha kan(alah, pakai beg galas je senang kan) , but his character that make me attracted to him. He hold his words. He promised and he fulfilled it. That is what I want in my future husband character. Chewahh.

Heehe, I saw a picture aaron kiss his wife at Paris. In front of public at Paris. Not proper actually but does not wrong because he kiss his wife right.. It was a romantic part lha kiranya but I just hope and always say this in my du’a that I can do UMRAH or HAJI with my husband as my MAHRAM. Ni gara-gara tonton AdamHawa lha ni. It affect me very well ok. Naseb baik I skipped a few part, so tak adalah too crazy right. Anyway, I hope Allah will take care of my future man, so I can meet him one day. Maybe he’s one of people I ever met before but who knows. Anything can happen and I just wish the best and pray for him and let Allah hold this love for a while, so ianya terpelihara.

Dah kenapa aku cakap pasal benda ni. TALKING MUCH. 

Diskriminasi

Why you choose him?

I cannot keep my eyes out from the letter I receive it this evening. My heart itching by reading one by one sentences. I don’t know what to do. Why you should put his name? did you love him more than you love me. I know love is something that cannot be fairly given to every important person in our life but my question is why him. Why your trust over him is highly more than your trust in me?

You cannot ask me why I questioned your decision because its affect me. Its like killing me you know. This is what I called jealousy. Look, we can jealous to everyone in any condition. Jealousy is not something that only happens when we are in love or marriage. So my jealous term right now is not about love. Its about trust. And trust is something that happen within our surrounding. Near to us. It can be happen among friends, family, siblings, cousins, twin, and everyone who have connection with us, right?

So, do trust me more. 

Expectation

What you expect me to do?

You call me everyday to remind me what to do. Each time you called me, I told you that I have done what you ask me to do. You keep ask me ‘dah ke belum?’ and my answer towards you always ‘DAH’.

I admit that today I lied to you. I know berdosa to do it towards you.
But still what you want is same right? Tak kan I nak membazir pulak?

Then you complain because I do it wrong in your eyes. Yet, you yell at me in front of her.

I feel ashamed.

You said this and that. You murmuring about this and that until you forget to say thank you. Owh I forget, why should you appreciated any of my works right. I am not deserve it. Ok FINE!!

You told me with high pitch. ‘I call you everyday to remind you. If I didn’t call you then you won’t do it. Tired lah if this kind of situation keep going on till the end’. . . .

Look I didn’t ask you to call me everyday. I know what should I do and I always remember it. I do your favor everyday and what I get? A yelling. I never complaining but please give me some respect. Don’t make me disrespect you cause I hate other easily or simply like one..two..three and a..b..c.

By Chance, I want change it

As we ever young before, I sure each of us ever questioned to our parents,

‘mama/ayah, why you choose this name for me?’. Right!

I pun ever wonder, why they choose Farah Farhana as my name. You know I have a imaginary name. I believe everyone have one but change our name is not as easy as we thought. So much procedure to do, and for me I 

choose to stay with the name chosen by my parents rather than change it.

Athara Dielsya Cahienria.

People call me Nana.

Some of them call me Farah. But it have been almost 6 years since I was in form 1(as I remember), that people dah tak call me Farah anymore. Why? Maybe because ‘FARAH’ is the name that called by people who hate me. Entah I try so hard to forget and accept it but I know I can’t. Maybe because I cannot forgive them yet. But I will surely do one day.

Dulu I watch drama Filipin and I love it so much. Kiranya that was my first Filipin drama lah.

Pangako Sayo.

And then, I don’t sure when but I love to call myself Arabella Gracies,
From there, I really wish if someone can call me Ara..Ara..Ara but still they call me Nana. In Japan, Nana means ‘number seven’. Owh please, I don’t want to be at seven places all the time.

And then, Eunice. I don’t remember where I got this name. Maybe from BABIE. Hehee. I don't know lha.  

Today, it was an ease if people can call me Hara.

Its from my own name. FARAH. Just terbalikkan jer and it will be HARAF, but why must I put F at the back kan? So get rid that F and lets HARA stay. From Farah I found HARA and from HARA, I found Athara.

Look, I never believe that name has connection with our character. But my teacher told that Our name showed who we are, because of that old says that ‘choose a good name for your child’. Farah Farhana. Hapiness of Happiness. In that name, what lies behind it ,is HAPPINESS. I not find what the happiness that meant for me, but I believe I will understand it one find day.

After all, I am thankful because my name is Farah Farhana. I proud of my name because I hope I will bring happiness to others just like the meaning of my name.

Athara Dieslsya Cahienria is my imaginary name.

Farah Farhana Karim is my name in NRIC.

But just call me HARA.

Note To Self

If we could learn to like ourselves, even a little, maybe our cruelties and angers might melt away.

Hurt Much

Fake.
Macam mana benci pun, please don't play around with girl's heart.

Double 'Senti'

Hari ini aku masih mampu tertawa ceria disebalik sendu yang menyelubungi amarah yang menguasai diri.
Hari ini aku masih tertawa ceria disebalik rasa terhina dengan perbuatan mereka.
Hari ini aku masih bisa tertawa ceria disebalik pedih hati yang masih tersisa.

Kekadang aku bertanya apa yang tidak kena pada mereka?
Kekadang aku tertanya, apa masalah mereka yang sebenarnya.
Kekadang aku bertanya, tak cukup lagikah derita yang mereka beri ku rasa?

Aku sudah terlalu penat untuk berkecil hati kerana aku pasrah takdir Illahi, pasrah itu bukan tanda aku putus asa cuma mungkin , cukup sampai disini sahaja.
Kesakitan, kepedihan dan kekecewaan yang aku rasakan mendidik aku menjadi dewasa, tetapi jiwa kecil dihati aku ini tetap menangis tidak betah.

Slahkah aku jika hati ini sukar memaafkanmu?
salahkah aku jika hati ini sukar untuk memadam sakit itu?
salahkah aku?
adakah kali ini kau akan menyalahkan aku untuk ntah yang keberapa kali?
Tidakkah kau rasa bersalah ataupun kau memang biasa begitu?
atau mungkin aku yang bersalah?
ya itu mungkin sekali..!!

Sometimes mood sentimental datang menjengah and that was the thing I cannot control

DRAMA FOR DQ

Usual after I finish my work. I will facebook. Twitter. Blog. Formspring. Askfm. Usually that was what I did. But today. Wifi ada problemo, so I watch a few drama which tranfered from my friend hardisk-credit to Farhah Jumat.

Here I list a few yang I have:
City Hunter
King Two Heart
Mr.Brain
My Boss My Hero
Operation Proposal
Prosecutor Princess
Rooftop Prince
Man Of Honour
Running Man 1-128

Those yang I list below, credit to Amalyna Ramlan;
Hunger Games
Twillight(s)
Avengers
Final Destination(s)
Conan

Look like ‘macam tak ada keje lain jer, dok ngadap semua benda ni kan’
Actually I really hope if someone ada DOWNLOAD ‘MERLIN’ from season one until five.
Really berharap.
Love for Colin!! – this untuk jealouskan Princess Kirana and Aman.. sahaja. 

Bangun Pagi Gosok Gigi

Today bangun as usual. Early in the morning to make them a breakfast.

Cofee.

Slices of bread with strawberry jam.

No fried rice or Nasi Lemak anymore because its not  a good food if we take in the morning. As you know rice contain high starch and to digest the starch, your body needs oxygen that require by your whole body. So all oxygen will go to your stomach just to digest that Nasi Lemak. Because of that you always ngantuk-ngantuk when lecturer or teacher teaching you.

So change our food to be smatter and healtier. 

My DAY

 Don't waste it. 

Believe yourself and try every means. 

Whatever happens , it happened already, 

but only we can change our own future.

Till the end of your breath,

Just try it

RELATIONSHIP

See yeah, we all always talk and have a chat right. 

Once you ask me to have a gathering I will take it seriously if there is no 

word 'JOKE' at the end of your chat. 

You know what, I take relationships seriously because I don't want lose it. 

It a part of me. 

Am I Polite ??

I'm so simple.

Talk active and do whatever I want. 

I might not think about what you feel before I do something, 

but I just a happy girl.

When I be polite in front of you thats mean I respect you. 

There is no others meaning like trying to tackle you parents heart or any, 

You are such a jerk ! and my advise to you 

'please open your mind widely and stop being arrogant' 

You are nothing for me, my life and my heart. 

SECOND ONE

-erghh pakai jela selimut ke, toto ke/gediks sungguh-

Everyone deserve second chance, 

and whatever we do, we are better at the second time. 

but I hate to be the second one you love

I want to be your first and your last as you are my first and last. 

did I ask much?

He's an ACTOR

Love

From bloggers I know that he's a good guy. 

I don't talk about his social life because everyone can be good.

Not all who wear ketayap is good right?

Our background is different, so let be open minded (not secular) !!

Before, I wonder why people love and adore him so much, 

but when I watch 'the' drama, yet I know the answer. 

When I read what reporters wrote about him,

yet I get the answer. 

ANTI-ROMANTICA

One day, that time will come. 

I didn't need to dream someone else. 

I just need to work hard and achieve my ambition. 

He will come to me and I will come to him'when Allah wants it to be happen. 

I believe in the fate written for me, 

So I believe, I can let the time passing without murmuring about the absent of someone

right now. 

xoxo

OTHERS SAYS IT ON MY BEHALF

I want to be at least be someone who important in your life and I want you show it not 

words it. 

I am not believe in you and I'm not trust you even that was what you want me to do. 

To trust you

 I love you too much, that was the cause why I cannot trust you. 

I love you so much, that was the cause why I must hate you. 

In other to let you life without pain in this wild world is so impossible, but at least I know I can 

reduce it on your behalf. 

One fine day, you will know why I telling you this because I cannot make it right now. 

If Allah save me and bless our second meet, I will be with you in the future. 

So move on. 

The words above is not arranged correctly. 

I take it randomly from movies that I ever watch.

It was what I feel and sometimes it was pretty cool when others said what you want to says, 

then just copy and paste it as I have no idea, how to make my words beautifully arranged without 

hurting others because that was the thing I always failed to do. 

AS I WAS PASSING

I have gone too far from my track. 

Its too high there and I hesitate with myself. The opportunity is just in front of my eyes, 

but I'm not really sure about that, should I take it?

As we are really near to our dream, 

situation keep pushing us and shake our faith and stand. 

I want to hold on and that is what I'm doing right now.

I cry for some reason that I don't know what it was exactly about. 

I eagerly want something that I cannot tell people. why?

because I am too shy to talk about it. 

I think it is too too personal even others can simply talk about it

and express their wanted for that day. Ntahlah. 

Sometimes, something going so hard for me. 

I heard his cry. 

As the water from the shower tapped the bathroom's floor, his cry became louder. 

I can feel the pain inside his heart.

Its about something that you can feel but you can't tell

Maybe because no one, want to listen, so people like him choose to cry.

I ever feel it before and I know how the pain kill my soul slowly. 

Its shaking my faith and I'm just lucky that I'm not went too far. 

But he's still small and I know he cannot endure it all alone. 

I think that I'm a cruel person. 

I know how hurt it is but why I am the same person who give this hurt to him. 

Behind the door, I know he cry inside. 

His eyes were red, maybe because he cries a lot. Sorry to him I cannot help. 

Nana!! why are you like this? Please lend him your hand. 

He need your support as you need right now. 

Don't make others in troubled because of your condition. Make him cry not solving your problems either right?

Look, be kind Nana. 

I'm sorry Bro :')

Hey, we know each other since we were young. 

People said once we grown up, we will stay away from each other as time change. 

But I believe and I always told myself that I will always stick to you like brother and sister. 

You treat me well and I will treat you same way. 

You help me a lot when I need it. 

You ever listening to my ridiculous feeling ans sometimes I feel like you are the best listener I ever had. 

I am sorry if what have I done few days ago make you hurt. 

Seriously I didn't mean like what you think. Sometimes, there are some feeling I cannot control.

I am really sorry and I mean it. 

You really care about what I feel eventhough I never think a little bit about your feeling like 

you may be hurt when I talk about 'that'. 

I don't know what ayah had told you but I am sorry and I know I shouldn't feel that way. 

I know you just want to make everything worth it and I know you just

want to help. I believe in you

Sorry again because I misunderstood you. 

Thanks for every effort you give in order to help my family and sorry cause hurt you too much. 

Hurt You? - I didn't mean that. 

I try every means to save this relationship. 

I love them so much, so I cannot lost any of them.

But this situation get worst as I'm trying harder to save it. 

I want to blame someone but I see no one but me. 

I try find the solution but I don't know where its hidden. 

Hold on 

Truth Bitter and Lie absolutely seem perfect!

But I love the imperfect. 

I'm not aiming for the perfection. 

Its enough for me to be true and be with true person for my entire life. 

Bitter. I'm used to it, so it does not matter at all if you tell me the truth. 

I may not forgive you for what you have done but telling me lies will not make me forgive you either. 

I am strong enough to listen to the truth. 

I am ready enough. 

Each pain have a reason of its happening and bless which await,

so please be true...

You say this and that. 

You explaining to other about me. I like this. I like that. I can do this but I can't do that. 

Who are you think you are? 

You are nobody else but someone important for me. 

Stop where you stand right now. 

Don't come closer. 

I hate it when you act like you know everything while the fact is otherwise. 

Stop with your talking. 

I heard enough. 

I listen enough. 

Just stop and don't come closer. 

I don't believe in you and I'm not easy to believe someone. 

You may stab me! 

When I sad I eat something heavy. 

When I hungry I eat something heavy. 

When I see 'cake boss'/ I eat. 

When I watch '5 rencah 5 rasa' I eat. 

When I watch master chef, I eat.

Eat. I bite any single things which look like food. 

Kita jumpa too many people in our journey of life. 

Yang annoying, yang menceriakan, yang dibenci, yang disayangi

They all give us thousands reasons for stay strong. 

'setiap pertemuan telah dirancang oleh Allah, hargai setiap pertemuan walaupun ianya sepahit hempedu kerana ada sebab kenapa kita dipertemukan' 

If Allah want it to happen, it will happen. 

'A duduk sebelah rumah B, tapi Allah tak nak A jumpa B. Then sampai kiamat pun A tak akan jumpa B'

'C duduk nun jauh di utara, B tinggal dekat selatan. Allah nak menemukan mereka berdua. Then sejauh manapun perjalanan mereka tetap akan berjumpa' 

so, why we must regret for every single 'hye' we ever give even now they are leaving? 

At least we have something to learn..

me:xx

what!! I ever thought about it before. 

I thought only me who wish that this kind of situation really happen. 

After all, this kind of thinking actually 'a dream'
yeah a dream in a dream. 

When I cannot understand what they are saying,

When I cannot hear what they are talking about, 

When I cannot see what exactly that they showed to me, 

at the end, I choose reading. 

A lots of book. You will never find it twice.

The book is a place where I finding myself in the darkness and in forgetfulness. 

I love book when they are understand we better that a person can. 

I love when book can give me such a good point of opinion

when a man cannot do.

Love

Funny and 'geli' to talk about this so seriously. 

I always make this topic as 'joke topik or funny topic' with my mom.

You know what, after I'm not 17. 

I cannot look at a very very romantic guys. Know why? I feel like ''uwekkks''

Thats what happen to me. To you?

Just be happy for what you have and love one and all. 

When I'm crying, please don't say much and murmuring in front of me

Just come and hug me. 

In other words, I will be okay. 

I'm trying to be myself

Its hard to say it out. 

You will just know it one day. 

Even when I say I love you, you still cannot understand because you know I'm not leaving you. 

But I might do that one fine day, so don't be so depended on me.

Cause I can give you nothing :')

You never know how much ones mean to you as long as you're not losing them. 

So while I'm still here, please treat me like human being. 

After all I'm not a monster even my face never cherish you and my lips never smile to you. 

If I died today, I want nothing else but the truth

I wish you can tell me more about it. 

Tell me everything.

Everything that you hide from me since the first time we met. 

Tell me and I can deal with it. I promise. 

Learn How

It never easy to get the precious things in your life. 

We need to sacrifice several things either we love it or not in order to get the best. 

Cause everything have it price in this world.

#I know I'm not that perfect but I try to be the best as I'm chasing the time

 but one said to me 'don't close the book, just turn to another page' 

Let it pass. I'm sure I will be better . Pretty good =)

I believe it was you and I never know that I'm wrong :'(

you are the one who I trust most. 

You can do this to me today and I'm not going to do it back to you because someone else will do. 

I'm not praying for that but I know that it will happen one day. Why?

Because that is what we called KARMA. 

it hurt inside, 

I want to express

but it doesn't want to out

its like I cannot let this thing out of my heart,

and it keep hurting my heart like 

a needle secured into my heart slowly and slowly. 

Until when, I don't even know. 

I'm sick :'(

sometimes what we really wanted is the one and only thing we cannot have. 

we keep asking why. why and why?

I cry and sometimes I ask myself, 'should I be a bad girl because in movie, everyone who act bad will got what they want. Its okay lah to get a punishment. At least I get what I want."

I know, each story have their own path.

I cannot ask or refuse. 

I must believe and stay strong in any condition because situation will keep forcing and pushing. 

I always remind myself

I must be strong. I must be strong. I must be strong. I must be strong. 

please I must be strong. 

What have I done?

I feel guilty and I have a feeling like my beats of heart become faster and faster. 

The calm day not present today. 

There is something hunt me and make me feel insecure. 

Ya Rabb please help me. I didn't mean to do that. I didn't mean to give them fake.
I didn't mean but I just need to ..@#3

(sigh) sorry

I wonder why don't you put my name? 

don't you believe in me?

I try to get rid that question, but it remains in my mind. 

I shut my mouth up. 

I scared I would say something that may hurt you. 

but as the day come and go and as I tried so hard forgetting this matter,

it keep bothering me and I feel like !!@@$%^!@
you know what it feel when someone have no trust in you. 

maybe they didn't say so but 

hey we all human being who have thing we call instinct. 

fingers note.. 

how I wish I can have you with me here and I can be with you there.

sometimes we cannot do right? fingers note.. 

someday. after the most big occasion in my life. 

Allah will give me HIS bless if you bless me mama.
thank you cause always with me in every means. 

Don't treat me like there is no tomorrow for me. 

I will breath like I always do till the time has come and that time I will stop. 

Know there is limit guys.

Maybe you not realise that what you do right now
hurting inside me. 

I know you just want to help but I don't think it necessary 

as you have take something that should be mine. 

I don't really know what are you thinking right now but can you just 

stop bothering all the matters. I mean my matter.
You think you want to help but in my side, you're just make me feel 

like I want to kill you. 

as old saying ' don't do much work at the same time' 

as you cannot eat while you're taking your bath right? 

so behave yourself and always remember that there is always limit in any things. 

believe or not. I'm sick with your question.

fingers note..xx

Where are you dude?

To SHE , who I miss so so much

Before;

My inbox full with super duper silly message.

There is lot things you told me.

You love to text 

I love to read. 

Now;

my inbox still full with message

but there is none from you.

You stop text.

I waiting for you.

You just like disappears.

fingers note...xd