Assalammualaikum earthlings :') 

I have been missing writing so much. I have intention to update it more regularly to make sure that 'the feeling' was there when I was writing it. Because one thing about writing a blog, if you hold the stories for too long, delaying your time to write, the excitement of an event that occur in your life will slowly went away. And by the time you are ready to write, the feeling is not there anymore. 

So, when that happen, I will usually staring on my laptop screen, wondering, what should I write. Hhaha.

Before this, I love to write poems. People who get their heart broken sure have ideas flow like waterfall, but now, as I am healing, I have more to talk about and I just couldn't seem to compressed it in a short poem. So, here is the essay-like post. 

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah that I am not officially working. Yes, eventhough I couldn't enjoy my honeymoon time after degree like some others before started working, I just feel as much grateful and thankful that Allah make it easy for me. Sometimes, I did whining because of my exhaustion, because I feel too overwhelm with taking my diploma earlier than my friend, enroll for degree the next day after finish my diploma (like, Monday I present my diploma internship program, and pack up my things balik melaka, on Wednesday, I went to Perak to register for degree on Thursday). 

The longest holiday I ever get is two weeks, because while I was on second semester, I was nominated as student representative committee, for two consecutive years. so yeah, no holiday! You can find me at my campus, every single day. Last semester before I went for internship, I had a program at Satun Thailand and we came back from Thailand 30th December 2017 and I went back to Malacca after, and on 1st January, I packed my things, moving to my rental room at Kuala Lumpur to start my degree internship on 2nd January.

Finish my intern on 8th June. And continue working at my internship company until 6th July 2018, and the next day on 7th July 2018, I started working at my current company; Mediterranean Shipping Company (MSC) 

And yeah, since that, I never updated you guys anything because I have been to busy!! Like super busy that I am tired of it but I like it. I like have something on my plate. I usually go back from office earliest at 6p.m and there are times I go back at 9.00p.m. but usually, I go back at eight or eight thirty. I am new and I have  a lot to learn. I cannot do that eight to five for now, because if I wanna catch up with the seniors, I need to work two or three times harder than them. I need to be more diligent than them. Yes, I am very competitive, but only with myself who live yesterday *wink*

Now that I am kind of settle and get used to my work, so I managed to organized my time better. 

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Okay, now I will get to point. Remember when I told you that I was too overwhelmed with everything. Since I start my internship, every months are very challenging to me. It's like one after another. Bad things keep befall upon me and my family,