I would be lying if I told you that I never think of that. I am twenty three now and I had friends who already happily married and had babies of their own. I am happy for them and truly am. I am still single when I am witnessing other's love story and I am okay with that. 

A friend once told me that I should look for someone instead of waiting for someone to come. She said, love is like a job, you won't get it if you didn't look for it. However, I am afraid that I might disagree with her, because there are three ways of having a job

1) Rejection - you got rejected from one interview and you go to apply another one. This is what we called unrequited love. You love him/her, but he/she just couldn't love you back. 

2) Recruitment - here is when you seek for the job and you secured the job as the employer accept you. This is what it's like when you both want each other. Thais is where you get to stay beside someone you love. You seek him/her and they accept you. And this is what happened to majority of us.

3) Scouted - you are not seeking for the job, but the job is seeking for you. This is exactly a kind of love story that I want. The one who will seek for me instead of me seeking him, why? because he is a man and he should look for what he had lost (his tulang rusuk), hhaha, cringe I know. 

At the end, everyone can choose which kind of love story they wanted to him, either 2 or 3, because 1 is completely not in anyone's list though it often happened to us

So the whole way to our home, my friend keep talking about how she wanted a marriage and how she want to give birth and raise her keen, but I was thinking if it all as easy as what we all dreamed about, I might get married tonight. Hahaha

But, that is not all matters. Love itself is not enough for me to consider that I should marry you. Out of love, marriage is a responsibility. From responsibility, you will learn how to respect and from there, you could nature love inside your heart and grow together to perfect the imperfection of two human being who will bloom together. 

And with our current economic crisis, plus there won't be any Hak Bumi applicable after ICERD was announced, I need to work not twice but tripple times harder than everyone else, to secure my position (stable monthly income), and I need to gain knowledge as much as I can, so I could make something out of it. I must use it to invent new sop, so I could excel in my field. (call me a dreamy head as it is the most satisfying fiction, exclusive but free, but who knows right - doa yang baik2)