Finish Internship + Surprise(s)

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful

Everyone know how impatiently I am to finish my internship, and yes, 8th June 2018 will be the day I will retrieve my freedom. For nearly six months I have suffocated in a golden cage *outrageously*

Everyone also know that I have not yet offered for a position at any company, this means, I will practically being unemployed right after I've finished my studies. However, the plus point is, I can finally enjoy my long holiday, because I never had one, since I went to NMIT.

But truth to be told. I am no longer sixteen. I am twenty-three. And according to my consciousness, I know that I had responsibilities to hold. I need to pay for my telephone bill, my car and my food. I cannot stay like forever in my parent's house for free right? It's time for me to contribute back to my family. And I couldn't do that, if I am unemployed.

I have been applying for job since end of March. Stating that I will be able to start at 2nd July 2018. I sent my resume to more than hundred company. Very little replying back. Many rejected. And only one or two company replying, stating that there is no vacancy at the moment. 

And suddenly, my boss, Mr. Jacky -- offering job opportunities to me.

Everyone know that I do not want to work there.

But I couldn't be broke at twenty-three.

And hence, with heavy heart -- I accepted the offer.

So, when 8th June 2018 arrived. I felt nothing. I experience one kind of numbness in my heart. I would like to cry but it was all dried. I have been crying for the whole six months. So, I decided to make peace with my heart. I want to make peace with what was written. So, I breathed in the future and breathed out the past.

I should really count the countless blessing that Allah, has given to me, instead of worrying myself, with the past, and the future, that is uncertain.

Eventually, I go back to Malacca to celebrate Eid Mubarak, trying to cheer myself up.

Trying to convince myself, that it was the best decision I've ever made. It is my hope that I could come back to the office with spacious heart.

May everything goes well, because I have no expectation on my plan anymore.

:)