Friday, June 22, 2018


Ok, like this!
Jom clear-kan my mind.

1. Saman
-- saman tu ada due date dia, kena bayar gila. So, tak perlu risau nak kena bayar sekaligus. Jadi tak adalah rasa terbeban sangat. Soal kena marah dengan ayah sebab bawa laju, it's fine. Tadahkan je telinga, sebab you must be responsible on your own act. Tak adanya, ayah nak marah pasal saman tu sampai berhari-hari, paling tidak pun, cuma seminit dua. Deadline August 2018, so, gaji bulan July nanti boleh pakai. Gaji bulan 6 ni, dulukan yang urgent.

2. Job Opportunities
Nak kerja dekat Company A atau Company B, tunggu dulu official offer letter. Selagi belum confirm, tak ada apa nak gelabahnya. Jadi tak payah sibuk2 fikir, eh gaji cukup ke tak, benefit apa yang aku dapat, position mana yang lebih better, etc etc

3. Rumah 
Sebab kerja pun tak confirm dapat lagi ke tak, so tak payah sibuk2 nak fikir cari rumah dekat Klang tu. InsyaAllah, kalau dah jalannya nanti Allah kata kesana, maka akan dipermudahkan caranya. Buat masa ni, bayar dulu balance deposit rumah, dan sewa untuk bulan 7. Nanti kalau nak keluar, boleh je guna deposit rumah untuk sewa rumah lain.

So far, enjoy je dulu kerja dekat current company. Sampai masa -- blah. Takyah nak banyak fikir sangat, buat botak kepala je nanti!!

-- aku yang tak nak kerja dekat current company
Kalau tak dekat sini, dekat mana kau nak cari makan? Hidup bukan semata tentang kehendak dan hati kau saja yang perlu dipuaskan. Kena fikir tentang tanggungjawab, bukan setakat lepas perut sendiri je. Kena fikir untuk contribute back to your parents. Kau bukan anak tunggal ataupun anak bongsu, bawah kau ada adik2 lagi yang perlu ditanggung oleh mak ayah kau, takkan kau nak mak ayah kau tanggung kau juga? 

-- aku yang tak nak duduk KL.
Tak semua orang dapat apa yang dia nak. Mungkin ini yang Allah nak bagi dekat kau, dan kalau dia yang tuliskan suratan ni untuk kau, maknanya, adalah benda yang dia nak tunjuk dekat kau. KL is not that bad apaaa, dekat dengan Melaka. It is the heart of Malaysia kot, nak pergi mana2 pun, dah tak berapa jauh. So chill! enjoy the moment. Sebab ramai lagi orang dekat luar sana yang merantau ke KL untuk cari kerja -- itupun susah. Kau dah dapat ni, bersyukurlah nak!!

-- aku yang tak dapat offer mana2 job dekat company lain.
Tapi setidaknya, kau tengah ada job. Setidaknya, kau tak menganggur unlike those graduates yang sampai sekarang berjuang nak cari kerja, sampai sanggup ambil apa saja kerja walau itu luar dari bidang dia. Zaman sekarang, jangan banyak memilih. Lagipun you are just a graduate, tak ada pengalaman apa pun, so LEARN!!

-- aku yang tak nak mengangur lepas belajar.
-- aku yang belum buat video presentation. 
-- aku yang dapat low marks, sbb supervisor aku letak *3* on my assessment
-- aku yang dapat interview dekat Klang 
-- aku yang perhaps kena travel KL - Klang tiap hari 
-- aku yang nak kena bayar deposit rumah hujung bulan ni
-- aku yang nak kena bayar sewa awal bulan tujuh ni 
-- aku yang keep kena tanya soalan min 3ques/daily sampai bulan December

Unwanted Love Letter

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


Hi, and good day!

After all that had happened;
tentang,
-- aku yang tak nak kerja dekat MS.
-- aku yang tak nak duduk KL.
-- aku yang tak dapat offer mana2 job dekat company lain.
-- aku yang tak nak mengangur lepas belajar.
-- aku yang belum buat video presentation. 
-- aku yang dapat low marks, sbb supervisor aku letak *3* on my assessment
-- aku yang dapat interview dekat Klang 
-- aku yang perhaps kena travel KL - Klang tiap hari 
-- aku yang nak kena bayar deposit rumah hujung bulan ni
-- aku yang nak kena bayar sewa awal bulan tujuh ni 
-- aku yang keep kena tanya soalan min 3ques/daily sampai bulan December

tiba2, 
-- aku yang dapat empat surat saman

Three (3) were for AES.
The other was for illegal parking at Shah Alam.

Damn.

My life is doomed #ehtiberr



#MEGOJOBINTERVIEW 2

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


Are you doing great?
If you do, it's good then.
because currently,
I have got no job in the office,
hence I don't know what to do.

I think I will be able to finish
reading all the books in this office!

On my first day of working (not as an intern),
I got called from MS Company.
They invite me for an interview on Thursday morning.
This company located 1.6km away from S company,
which I mentioned in my last post.

Do you believe in coincidence?

I decided to attend the interview,
so, I did. 

The feedback was quite similar with S Company.
They seems like wanted to take me in 
but does not give me any confirmation yet. 
and the most crucial issue is,
both company located in Klang Valley

I just moved in to KL
thinking that it would be nearer for me to go to work
and now, 
if I wanted to leave my intern company, 
I may need to travel a long distance,
every day and night

I don't know anymore

#MEGOJOBINTERVIEW

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


I will skip RAYA post,
and update it later 
when I have time :)

Last Monday, 
on the fourth raya, 
I got a call from 
a company, named S.

They called me for an interview.

My family's original plan was, 
We'll visit out uncle at Putrajaya on Tuesday, 
and go to Bukit Jalil to view 
our new rented room.

When I got the called, 
the plan was revised 95%.

We departed to Putrajaya
on that evening,
facing heavy traffic and only 
manage to arrive 3 hours later.

On Tuesday morning, 
we went to S company
attending my interview.

I can never thank my family
enough for waiting patiently :')
*warm hug*

After that,
we visit my parents' friend at Klang.
and after that,
my parents straight away went back to Malacca,
and I am all alone headed to Bukit Jalil.

Because the next day,
I will start working 
at my intern company T.T

I don't know why,
but I felt so sad that I cried.

But then again, 

if I get this position, 
I will need to travel all 
the way from KL-Klang

just like Shah Alam - KL

so, I need to do this all over again?? 

Only the thoughts of it has killed me. *sigh* 


Finish Internship + Surprise(s)

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


Everyone know how impatiently I am to finish my internship, and yes, 8th June 2018 will be the day I will retrieve my freedom. For nearly six months I have suffocated in a golden cage *outrageously*

Everyone also know that I have not yet offered for a position at any company, this means, I will practically being unemployed right after I've finished my studies. However, the plus point is, I can finally enjoy my long holiday, because I never had one, since I went to NMIT.

But truth to be told. I am no longer sixteen. I am twenty-three. And according to my consciousness, I know that I had responsibilities to hold. I need to pay for my telephone bill, my car and my food. I cannot stay like forever in my parent's house for free right? It's time for me to contribute back to my family. And I couldn't do that, if I am unemployed.

I have been applying for job since end of March. Stating that I will be able to start at 2nd July 2018. I sent my resume to more than hundred company. Very little replying back. Many rejected. And only one or two company replying, stating that there is no vacancy at the moment. 

And suddenly, my boss, Mr. Jacky -- offering job opportunities to me.
Everyone know that I do not want to work there.
But I couldn't be broke at twenty-three.
And hence, with heavy heart -- I accepted the offer.

So, when 8th June 2018 arrived. I felt nothing. I experience one kind of numbness in my heart. I would like to cry but it was all dried. I have been crying for the whole six months. So, I decided to make peace with my heart. I want to make peace with what was written. So, I breathed in the future and breathed out the past.

I should really count the countless blessing that Allah, has given to me, instead of worrying myself, with the past, and the future, that is uncertain.

Eventually, I go back to Malacca to celebrate Eid Mubarak, trying to cheer myself up.
Trying to convince myself, that it was the best decision I've ever made. It is my hope that I could come back to the office with spacious heart.

May everything goes well, because I have no expectation on my plan anymore.


:)



Thursday, June 7, 2018

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


Solemnization is a sacred promise. It requires a lot from a man to commit.
Of course, it is important to choose the person you will make the 'contract' with. This person will be a partner for your lifetime, who his/her face will be the first you see when your eyes open every morning and night. This person will obviously become your all and world. This person will indeed become your pain and your remedy.

You guys will go through a lot -- together/

That's why, it is very important to choose your spouse. Looking for someone who can support you, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. (and yeah, financially -- sebab, you didn't pay your kids diapers and milk with some leaf okayhh). So, at our age right now, we should stop concern ourselves with small things like my partner didn't reply my whatsapp!

Of course, communication is important, but darlingggss, everyone is working their ass to achieve their dream and marry you. So give some space for your partner to focus on their career before they can focus on you in the near future. Be a supportive partner instead. Give them wings to fly up high. Help them to lift to higher level.

And I think, that's the reason why I stay single. Because I cannot handle things like, -- 
need to update what I am doing for every second,



Friday, June 1, 2018

Assalammualaikum June,

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ 
In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful


May peace be upon you,

June, 
I have been waiting for you,
with an abundance patience.

June,
I delicately counting,
all days left,
until I reach you.

June,
The struggle is real,
the hopeless is real,
the despair is real.

June,
I was about to give up,
I was about to leave everything.
I was about to be selfish,
again.

but June, 
I survive,
because I know,
you're coming.

June,
thank you --
for arriving.