BMO Family

Every semester, 

bbq night is a must,

at least for my classmate.

People says our bond

is so strong and that we're very close to one another.

Obviously, we didn't advertise what had happened in our circle,

but at least we know what other people picture about us.

and it is good, being saw in 'togetherness spirit'

that's not the point, really.

the things is, I realise, how cliche it is, 

it was one of the thing that keep us together,

no matter how apart will we be in the future.

to organize and to make things happened, 

we need to be one,

have fun and feel the moment tho, 

I'm pretty satisfied,

but there is always, always..

things happened which spoiled the happy day,

and I don't really enjoy the night.

not because of the foods or the games, 

but maybe because of myself. 

things running wild in my head 

and what else can I do beside sitting down 

and think!

but for me, 

no matter how bad our mood are, 

be responsible with other people's feeling,

acknowledge those who were affected by our action, 

and for being such an ignorance one is being so selfish!

because this semester is my last,

that's why I'm being sulky,

because this semester is my last,

that's why I hate if someone ruin it.

and may the family 

stay together 

until the last.

I hope,

I pray.

Ohana Journee

Things are all well in my head,

I had planned everything, 

it's all in my mind.

but the thing is.

when it isn't go as I planned, 

that's when I feel like

being crushed by an airplane.

knowing him had someone 

and am still working is driving me nuts,

I cannot focus as the news 

came as in tiba-tiba,

and it struck me like a bullet train.

but work is work.

personal reasons must be kept as personal.

I am glad that I am working it out

and really rocking with the team!

as an emcee of the night, 

I know I was lame, 

trying to be funny but I can't

but I tried.

but end up looking like a fool.

ah! don't care.

He had someone else

Now that he is not available, 

most of the thing have changed. 

or perhaps should be changed.

the way I treat myself for anything 

relating to him.

Allah give the answer in the softest way possible

and I couldn't thank much enough for that.

And trying to be as normal as my normal days, 

Sha realize that I am not being myself since I knew about it, 

but hey, what a good feeling knowing someone 

know you better than anyone else.

I ever say,

that if he's happy with his life,

that it will be enough for me.

Hence, I officially close the story.