Hoping Family and You are here

Because I am missing my family so much. And I hope you are here, when you are not. ��
I have make some friends here, but they are not listening to my story as you are.
They called my name, but when you called my name, you make it sound and feel different.
They make jokes and I laugh, buy when I am with you I feel happier.
But that's not all-
My heart ♥ beat faster whenever I am with you.
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Qwertyuiop

I miss my sister so much. No one ever understand me more than she do. I miss my mama so much, no one ever stand with my nonsenseness more than she do. I miss my little baby so much, I will annoy her everytime we met but she still endure it. I miss my brothers so much, no one can beat their skill as my bodyguard. They will protect their parents and sister. Who carry out their duties as a leader. Who will advice their sister's appearance. Who care about my aurah. I miss my dad so very much. Just the way he love me for what I am. Who will feed me and asked me to diet and asked me to eat again if I feel hungry. And yeah, he always ajak us ngeteh tengah malam. Haha! Macam mana nak kurus seyh ����

Tomorrow presentation had been cancel. Weheeeee ������

October 15,2015

Test Buss Math.

Alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah.

That is all I can say.
I don't study much.
I slept a lot yesterday.
Mimi looked at me weirdly.
Because I got exam tomorrow and I don't study.

Idk.
Do you ever experience 'down' moment?
When I was in Nmit, every time I feel lazy to study or 'upsidedown', I will drove straight to my hometown.
Jaybee Melacca - bolehlah.

Perak - Melaka?, memang tak la.

*cut*

The thing is, every time before taking test, I will call my parents. I asked for their dua and it's true that our parents is our talian hayat. But of course kalau tak ada usaha, tak jadi jugak. But the main point is, percayalah redha Allah tu terletak pada redha kedua ibubapa. If you do good for your parents, goodness will comes to you.

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Till here.

Eh, before that.
So far dah dua hari 1/2 tak makan nasi.
Tapi rasanya kejap lagi nak makan nasi
Tak tahanlah hari hari makan nestum. Haha!

Esok ada presentation Fund of Maritime Operations (Fmo)!

Till here.

Ayah

I called him.
After a bip..bip.
The call ended.
I don't have sufficient credit.

One second not even passed.
I received called from him.
He didn't answer it ,
He passed the phone to mama.
And that's what make me wanna cry.

My uncle pay my parents a visit.
But that's ayah.
No matter how busy he is.
He will never ignore his child's phone calls

Even though he asked mama to answer the phone,
He will asked mama later. Indeed.
He is a father .
Never show me how much he missed me.

Even though he's busy.
He will call right after that.
Not even delaying, why?
Because he always want to be there for his child.

I pray to Allah.
Moga sempat aku lihat mereka hingga tua.
Moga disempatkan aku untuk menjaga mereka.
Moga disempatkan aku untuk mati sebelum mereka.
Moga disempatkan aku menjalankan amanah mereka.
Moga disuatu nanti, aku menjadi ganjaran buat mereka disyurga.

Mogamoga nanti, aku dapat bersama mereka di firdausi.

Ayah,
Thank you for always loving me.
Thank you for nature me with love.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you.
Thank you.
May Allah grant you the highest jannah.

Rather than having you in my sight.
I want your time to talk to me.
It's okay if we connected through whatsapp only.
It's okay.

I just hope that you are not too busy.

Cerita tentang aku pasang telinga.
Or perhaps aku tercuri dengar.
-- tentang seorang lelaki, yang mengaku bodohnya dia kerana mengaku pada perempuan yang dia suka tentang dia dan skandalnya.
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Pada aku, dia bukan bodoh kerana jujur. Tapi dia bodoh kerana tidak setia.
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Pada aku, kalau benar kau suka, kau tak akan persoalkan tak-tahu-jodoh-kita-siapa dan jadikan itu sebagai satu alasan untuk pasang banyak teman. Kau guna alasan berkawan untuk kau pilih.
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Kau pikir kau siapa? Letak diri paling tinggi dengan hak untuk pilih-pilih, kau pikir perempuan tu barang dagangan yang boleh kau ambil bila kau mahu, dan boleh kau buang bila tak dimahu.
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Kalau benar suka, usahakan. Tapi hanya satu. Sebelum nikah saja kau sudab jadi player, jadi suami nanti macam mana?
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Entahlah. Org kata perempuan tu rumit, tapi pada aku-- lelaki malah lebih kompleks.

He who couldn't get over his first love

Is it true that a man will never be able to forget his first love? I am just wondering how bearable the pain is. Because I think, I am getting scared of the thought of a man will not fully love a women if that women is not his first love. His thought will always remind him to his first and I just imagine how hurt it is for a women to face with that situation.

Erm.

I am such  a friendly person, outside.
I feel good if I could help people out of their problems.
I think it is nice to know more people in your life.
But I .. Have a kind of complexion in my self.
I don't really like if people get into my space. I've specifically dividing my space for certain people and if there is any one of them try to go against my system, my soul doesn't seem to accept it.

When you are standing in front of someone room, there is one action called sense of respect that is 'knock'
Train you fist to knock the door and don't forget to wait for them open the door for you. If you didn't hear something like 'come in', then don't ever try.

I don't like being in hostel.
People keep open my door when it wasn't locked
And my roommate keep forgetting to lock the door. I can't blame her tho. Habits is something that you should trained.

How lyfe in here

Degree is tough.
or maybe staying in Perak is tough.
or maybe the long distance is making it tougher.

I really want to further my degree
for certain reason.
1. I want to finish it quickly
2. because I've got things to do after degree
3. because I really miss to study and attend class

However,
After a lot of struggle to be here
I feel like I lose my spirit.

I am good with everyone
But still can't find someone who I can chilling with.

Actually, I have an incredible crazy head.
But here people labelled me as polite! which is so not me. Hhaha
But that's the thing that happen.
I am pretty disappointed because I couldn't
show myself towards them.

I took some time and think.
I reflect what had happen since my first day in here.
and I came to conclusion that it's actually fine to be like that (keep my true self for me)
because not everyone is ready to accept the real 'you' yet.

Some people need time.
and I think it is important for us to observe people character.
Because this time I really want to select my friend.
I really need someone who is supportive and positive.
Who will encourage me to do more.

I didn't want to waste my time for
unworthy friendship like before. (not all)
because right now, there are some friends that I really miss from NMIT.
I wish they will be here very soon.

Owh back to our story--

erm..actually I do find someone who I can be crazy with.
We have sorting things we want to do throughout this semester.
but unfortunately, she has quit.
--owh couldn't say more, because losing the only one friend
who you can talk about your inner self is the saddest part of
being alone here.

(I am used to be alone anyway), so apa adahal *sadokandiri

3rd week is Eid Adha break.
So yeayyyy, I came back home!!
I am really happy to see my siblings.

This year w/out my parents we celebrating Eid Adha.
Of course we do feel incomplete.
But they were doing ibadah in Mecca.

Travelling from Perak to Malacca is so tiring.
8 hours in the bus was a torture.
I had back pain after that.
Feeling exhausted the whole day.
Mak Long and Nuar come to fetch me at mc,

Allah blessed me with nice uncles and aunties.
I hope I will be a loving aunty to all my future niece and nephew.

I don't really have a feeling to start class on the next week.
Which is this week!!
After a slow teaching/learning progression,
suddenly students were bombarded with lot of assignments and quizzes.
Owh myyy!!

I am having fever right now.
Feeling sick inside and out.
Flu.
cough.

Beyonce (my classmate) a dongseang, said that I look like
someone who crying.
My face turn red in most of the time.
I couldn't breath like usual.
I feel like something chocking me.

Herm, what else?

owh ya, I am actually doing my assignment but
stealing some time to post an entry in my blog.
so nah..

Till here, from manjung, perak.
missing hometown.