I told Ameer and F about the person who I hate most when I
first come to NMIT.
Yes it was Atta and seriously I don;t know why.
Maybe if he didn’t snap my picture, I would not feel that way.
But when it is about heart, how should I control it?
After Mardhiyyah officially a Muslim, then we had dinner together with Ameer, Danial, Atta, F and Afiq. Coincidencely, Atta sat beside Aiyah who sat next to me.
I ask him how to overcome this feeling.
I tak ada niat nak kenakan dia or sakitkan hati dia.
I have no cause to do so.
It just I am asking him how to overcome the feeling.
Because I feel sorry for him for being hated by me for no strong reason.
and I feel sorry for myself because I commit sin so freely even I know I can control that feeling.
How should I do.
I feel guilty at the same time.
Even Allah can forgive HIS servant then who am I to judge people and hate them that much?
Seriously when Mardhiyyah and Aisyah laughing, I feel so bad gila gila.
I terasa that I am so bad that I didn’t deserve for respect.
To the person I talked about; I am so sorry!
Yes it was Atta and seriously I don;t know why.
Maybe if he didn’t snap my picture, I would not feel that way.
But when it is about heart, how should I control it?
After Mardhiyyah officially a Muslim, then we had dinner together with Ameer, Danial, Atta, F and Afiq. Coincidencely, Atta sat beside Aiyah who sat next to me.
I ask him how to overcome this feeling.
I tak ada niat nak kenakan dia or sakitkan hati dia.
I have no cause to do so.
It just I am asking him how to overcome the feeling.
Because I feel sorry for him for being hated by me for no strong reason.
and I feel sorry for myself because I commit sin so freely even I know I can control that feeling.
How should I do.
I feel guilty at the same time.
Even Allah can forgive HIS servant then who am I to judge people and hate them that much?
Seriously when Mardhiyyah and Aisyah laughing, I feel so bad gila gila.
I terasa that I am so bad that I didn’t deserve for respect.
To the person I talked about; I am so sorry!