do you ever feel so tired 

and feel like you're not being appreciated?

Being a src, I do lot more than I should as a student. 

I didn't blame others. I blame me. 

but this is what I like and what I wanted to do. 

so, no regrets. 

You try to apply any scholarship, 

the condition is two; 

for you to balance both curricular & academic, 

and when you did that, 

the panel only look at your academic achievements. 

*wth*

we spent hours doing things that are not our responsibilities 

to help our universities and yet we get no recognition for that. 

i just feel like - what the heck i'm doing this for?

it sucking up my energy!

but i know, that's not what I angry at. 

I angry at those who makes the rules. 

if you're not going to follow the rule then don't make one. 

idk why, 

but i feel betrayed. 

by who?

i don't know. 

i may say nonsense. 

and yes, i did.