Jika sempurna yang kau cari. Bukan aku.
Jika memujamu yang kau mahu. Bukan aku.
Jika kecantikan yang kau mahu. Bukan aku
Jika harum wangi yang kau mahu. Bukan aku

Aku tidak buka siapa aku pada mereka yang aku tidak selesa.
Aku tidak dedahkan aku pada mereka yang aku tiada kenal tanpa bual bicara.
Dengan masa, perlahan-lahan aku mendekati dan memahami.

Bila sudah lepas ketara siapa aku sebenarnya,
Bauku tidak seharum satsuma.
Rupaku kusam penuh dosa tiada seri.
Apapun yang mereka lihat tika itu pada diriku sudah tidak seperti diawal momen perkenalan.
Tidak lagi seperti imaginary mereka.

Selut duri pernah aku redah.
Aku tahu ada yang calar berdarah lebih parah daripada aku.
Fitrah manusia berdosa seperti aku merasa terseksa dengan dugaan yang mungkin pada kalian remeh saja.

Entahlah, bila bau busuk sudah kau bau.
Kau mula jauh melarikan diri.
Tika sineri ini berlaku, tanyakan pada hatimu, adakah kau sudah bersedia mencari rusukmu.
Bukan sekadar mencari, tapi lebih kepada menerima.
Kerana kahwin itu satu ikatan tersimpul mati yang tiada istilah cuba cuba
Dan
Tiada juga tempoh yang kau tahu panjangnya berapa lama.

You didn't tell me the truth.
Or maybe the truth is what you are showing to me right now?
I don't even know what's in.my mind.
But i also want to know what was in yours.
Salahkah

Fine.
Pergi saja as we know nothing's permanent. Here.
It just kalau benar kau ada rasa dan
Rasa terhadap aku itu ikhlas apa adanya, maka aku mohon, jangan kau outus asa.
Kelak satu hari nanti.
Jika ditakdirkan aku dan kau tanpa dia, maka aku akan terima dengan hati yang rela.

I'll always miss you

Assalammualaikum,

after last night punya mental break down because all those unclear reason, aku lari pergi bilik Fara.
i don't know what was in my mind but I know I must make a move.
dia pun baru je sudah solat maghrib and was listening to Quran mp3 at You Tube.

talk about this and that.
from A to the Z until we no realise what time was that.
but both of us tak rasa ngantuk, so after isyak at 12 midnight she came over my place.
LA Cofee.
memang tak tidur la kan.

entahlah ada je modal nak bercerita until Sara datang and we keep talking until I realise its already 6am.
Like, seriously??

unbelievable kan?

then, sara and Fara went to tunaikan solat Subuh.
they get me after that and bring me to the gym. yeah!!! exercise time. la sanghhattt

at least today is such a productive day. 

since the first day of sem 3 lagi I don't really me.
Faham tak?
it was like you are not you and the worst part is you are worst than your yesterday.
in term of my nasib, mark, result, friendship, love, body figure and all la.

entahlah,
sometimes when people look you at the top they will try their best to drag you to the bottom.
sumpah tak tipu.
rasa macam negative thinking je kan aku ni, but then that was what I feel and what I think!

since abang deana (nabil) dah enter NMIT, she seems so busy and
he's particularly deana's family and of course she should be with him dalam satu tempoh masa which
i don't really know how long?
but, apa kaitannya dengan Alin? owh..nabil's girlfriend.
talking about Alin make my darah cepat gila panas. I don't know why. macam ada chemical reaction pula between both of us.
maybe I je yang rasa. don't know.
abaikan jela story about Alin. she's nothing in my life pun-anyway. sebab she's not like what she said.

deana is judging.
and guess what I start judge dia pula.
I have no time to sulk or terikutkan sangat rasa offend tu because of her sebab after all I need to move on.
like deana ever said, people come and go and what I need to do is to let her go.
"bye bye deana...
thanks for being my friends and all"

seriously for friendship thingy- aku dah cukup malas.

right now, the most important thing to do is buang all the negativity and just mind my own business!!!