Not going to look back!

Look, seriously I do not know what is currently in their thinking, 

but I stay with my decision. People can talk behind me, do it and I don't care.

After all, I used to it. I stayed!! una palabrita..

Comp;lex

una palabrita...

I easily like people. Even the annoying one. I might like you. una palabrita..

Spaces for others =)

I cry, not because I weak. I just prepare spaces for peoples who depending on me. una palabrita...

Final Destination?

death is something that you cannot avoid from. 

However you try to cheat the design, you never will because it was a secret. 

Final Destination, you can take the positive morals that use this life with something benefit you here after. 

You cannot run or delay even one second. una palabrita..

Fashionista =)

FOCUS ON THE CLOTH / TSHIRT

I love to wear something loose. It make me comfortable. 

I love extra long  sleeve. I just love

My wardrobe will be full with this kind of fashion. una palabrita ...

Mr.Teddy

As big as human. 

I really want to have one like this. Seriously..I think this gonna be more romantic 

than giving roses. una palabrita

Ridiculous

sometimes I talk ridiculous thing. I do ridiculous thing. I think about ridiculous thing. I feel happy for ridiculous thing yet feel sad for that. It ridiculous enough to understand. 

But ridiculous thing does not exist in this world. In thing wide world. Everything can happen, it was us who cannot see it. Everything seem possible to be happen. 

Just like fallen in love. Why you can fallen for someone you never meet before? una palabrita..

stay the way you are =)

I stay the way I am. I never change!! (That was what I think)

even you think you are the lowest or the weakest one among people, 

just beware because someone is aiming for your place and dream to be 

exactly at your place. And that person will do every means,

to make you fall for nothing. 

Be grateful for all you have =) una palabrita..

Time passes and we growing up. 

Different time. Different places. but we stuck in the same past. 

I never regret, it just wonderful time that I never realise. 

After all, they teach me to be more humanity =) 

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If you really love someone, you will let them go without hesitation. Love doesn't always mean you must be together =)

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telling someone you hate them is much more easier than telling you love them.

like Echo who now think back on that day,

 she add a whole new scene.

 One where instead of turning over and falling back to sleep, 

she say something important and something meaningless, 

something that would have let Zoe know, 

beyond all doubt , just how much she loved and admired her sister, Zoe.

But the truth is, she didn't say anything.

How supposed she know that was the last tie she had ever see Zoe?

..just saying..

one

They say there are five stages of grief:
1. denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

Up until last year I didn't know there were lists like that. I had no idea people actually kept tract of this things. But still, even if I had known, I would have guessed that just a few month before my seventeenth birthday I'd be stuck in stage one

..just saying..

Law?

Back then I always planning to be like this and like that.
I arranged the bricks so that it will be the stairs which I will step on.
the way under construction
erm.. it's right that I don't know how long my journey will be,
but as long as I have this life I will fight for all that I have now and for all dream I had.

One day, I will be one of them who cheering after graduate and receive job offer

before I could search for one.

One day, I will travel. Enjoying the beauty of nature.
walking in the raining snow
drink a cup of coffee
look outside through glass wall

yeah, with my own money..there are some place I wanna go =)

accept job that I am happy to do, 

visit mama and ayah at least once a week. 

make them stay with me to pamper me. 

buy my little sister things that she really want to have. 

doing umrah with my parents, my eldest sister with her husband and kids, my brothers and my lil sister, 

meet my old bestfriends, 

talking about what happens back then, 

receiving wedding invitation and maybe give them mine. Hahaa!!

I know it will not be easy but I am arranging the bricks. 

I need to wait

S.A.B.A.R

Hati aku boleh diibaratkan seperti sehelai kertas.
Tak kalis air. Tak kali api. Tak kalis minyak dan tak kalis renyuk. 

Ia mudah tersakiti. 

Meskipun aku dah terbiasa namun setiap luka baru, yang bertindih diatas luka luka yang lama

membuatkan kepedihan itu rasa tidak tertanggung.
Iman aku pun goyah juga. Tak sekuat yang aku mahu. 

Perjalanan hidup ini jauh walaupun kehidupan itu singkat.
Entah sampai bila, inhalation dan exhalation mampu aku lakukan lagi. 

Aku tak tahu. 

H1

If you want to avoid problems,

 don't externalize what is worrying you and avoid giving gratuitous advice to others in your midst. 

worded..

Te Amo Sayangs :)

.travelling.

How I wish I could tell them everything because it was hard trying to hide something from your beloved one. I want to let them enter my life and share this short time I have to spend.

Guys, thanks a lot when you trying to understand all even I tell you no more. 

Guys, thanks even you are not in my sight but I just know you are here for me.

thanks for letting me enter your life. worded.

KEEPING SECRET.

Secret wishes, hidden heartaches, and painful truths. Everyone has them but some secrets are bigger than others. 

We usually tell our best friend everything. Our crushes about our embarrassing stories, our secrets but sometimes there are truths so deep and dark that we can't tell anyone. Not our parents, not our sister not even our bestfriends. Some secret are so unspeakable that we keep them safely locked away so no one will discover them. But what happens when they become more than you can handle alone?..worded..

THIS IS DREAM

Aku disuatu ketika yang aku tak tahu; 

Kami ketawa bersama walaupun aku tak berapa tahu apa yang kami bualkan. Aku tak tahu pula bagaimana dengan dia. Kawan-kawan aku yang lain ada disebelah aku. Turut ketawa. 

Aku tidak pernah kenal lelaki yang ada dihadapan aku saat ini. 

Malah tidak pernah sekali pun berjumpa. 

Kali terakhir yang aku ingat, aku dan kawan kawan yang lain dihalau dari rumahnya. 

Mummy dia tak suka. Katanya ngak level!!

entah macam mana, aku berada di kafe sebuah hospital, 

aku nampak kelibat mummy lelaki yang berbual dengan aku tadi. Tubuhnya dalam pakaian yang merah menyala. Menyala sangat. sakit mata ~_~

Aku rasa masa macam berhenti sekejap. Pergerakan aku lambat sangattt. 

Macam ada yang menarik atau menahan aku dari terus meneruskan langkah. 

Aku mahu menghindar dari mummy lelaki yang tak aku kenali tu. 

Aku masih belum lupa bagaimana tajamnya matanya menikam anak mata aku, 

gara-gara aku lawan kata -katanya. 

Seingat aku, aku katakan pada dia begini "hey, datin ingat anak datin sorang je ke yang buat kerja? saya ni lantai sana saya basuh, lantai yang datin tengah pijak ni pun saya yang basuh tau!! Lagipun, saya tak ingin pun la masuk rumah datin ni" 

Aku tersungkur dilantai kafe hospital tetapi aku lega kerana aku tak bertembung dengan datin lagi. Aku tak mahu cari gara-gara di hospital. 

Aku bangun dan aku teruskan perjalanan. 

Aku lihat, begitu ramai orang perempuan di dalam rumah mak long. 

Mereka semua berbaris didalam satu barisan berbeza lelaki dan perempuan. 

yang lelaki di depan dan yang perempuan dibelakang. 

Aku nampak diri aku bersimpuh di dalam barisan di kedudukan yang paling hujung. 

Tiba-tiba aku bersuara ''Nana ada benda nak beritahu korang semua''
Semua jemaah menoleh ke arah aku dan.. 

aku terjaga dari tidur. Aku tak tahu pun apa meaning of this dream. Yang pasti, kini wajah lelaki yang aku jumpa dan juga wajah datin merangkap mummy lelaki tu dah beransur pudar dan aku boleh katakan bahawa aku tak dapat cam wajah mereka andai kata kami berjumpa pula di dunia reality. 

WE ARE SAME?? xd

When I doing blog walking, I randomly get some idea about what I want to write.
Usually I just spill out what inside my mind but today I want to filtrate the data first because those words I want to say might hurt someone and I do not want that to happen. 

But the awkward situation was when my idea was exactly same with other blogger,

so I just wondering whether I should write it or not because I am afraid if someone says I try to copying that person.

Huuhhuuu, I am so in trouble.

#Please tell me that it was okay for me to write the same topic in the same way.
sometimes we had same idea right?? :xd

COLOUR

COLOURED YOUR LIFE

I hate pink but I do no love red,
My thumbs down when it was blue but my thumbs not turn up when it purple

I randomly choose the colour : ) 

Lolols: xd

UNTITLED

I always remind myself that everything will be okay and everything will be at their original place back. 

Even so I told myself for hundreds time, my heart still pounding hastily and
make me hurt more and more.
Sometimes, I'm just thinking about giving up but I know I can do it, so I keep moving. 

So right now, can you just please tell me that the hope which I hoping for is nowhere :(

xoxo