A dream and hope

In my heart I draw a dream 

which I name it HOPE 

when I decide the direction and the purpose 

so it means that I'm ready to 

take the challenge 

The way to the top is winding 

make me difficult to climb 

but still I brave this fragile heart 

I thought HOPE is smooth as DREAM 

which play in human sleep 

if life not like that 

then , my heart shaken by the fact 

I also do not have to state 

my weakness 

when I tested last forced 

and I gather all my strength again 

based on faith 

This Is My Life

we're the director 

i direct my story with my own way 

Versus

'It hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does'

fight with it, 

show the power of your brain 

because your brain control all the activities 

but your heart control your feeling :')

Rb.lated

unintentionally heard, it hurts inside me 

thank you 

Voldermort

I may forgive you because I have no right to give punishment to you. 

Allah will do that 

but I will never forget what have you done 

Note #30

It was just a part of learning, 

I mean in

I learn that boys are not the only way to make girls happy

learn that there are too much things that can make me happy
learn that I have bigger responsible to hold that thinking about this
I have my part and I had learn 

Love is ... what?

Menurutku, cinta ibarat sebuah buku. Setiap helaian, menceritakan kisah yang baru, menyempurnakan sebuah cerita secara keseluruhannya. Ibarat serpihan serpihan memori kita. Tentang hari yang terbaik dan hari yang terburuk. Namun, kita tetap menerima sebuah buku itu sebagai satu cerita. Dan begitulah cinta, engkau tidak akan bahagia hanya dengan rasa suka. Tapi apabila engkau menerima setiap hari terbaik dan terburuknya. 

Thanks NST !!

August 23/ 2012

little award

I know You Before

I don't know when or where I meet you.

I also don't know how or what made me feel easy with you. 

Today you are different in shape 

Today you are different in characters 

Today you are not like yesterdays 

but I love your yesterday's version 

and

Today, I don't know you anymore 

Note-To-You#5

maybe we are not close any more 

but I always here for you.

Almost at the end =)

It almost at the end 

and more problems popping up at the last second 

maybe we need rest 

maybe we need confession

maybe we need a conversation !!

but 

time . ego . feelings . words

forbid it 

times running out and I'm standing here with problems,

the last answer is :: everyone has problems ::

end the termination with flying colour result? pray for me 

May Allah Bless 

What isn't be said

Its may be hard 

Hard to admit

Hard to say that's true 

.True.

True of the lie

True that I can't admit 

True that I'm being too weak 

True that I'm being rude to my own soul

True that I'm afraid of those fear 

True that I'm hard to forgive 

True that I'm hard to ask for forgiveness 

True that I'm being too sensitive on the simple things

True that I'm being immature 

True that I'm being un-nature 

True that I'm keeping loneliness 

True that I'm trying to move on my life 

True that I'm trying build new relationship with everyone

True that I put more efforts

but the secret lies behind those words is 

I need to hide those feeling, 

can't revealed even towards those who I love.

Making non fairytale story 

I try 

try to face this world as I should 

learn from the argue 

take the simple advises 

and give more love.

but it is not easy just like saying it,

It something that we express truly from our heart 

xloxlo

I'm Telling You

I just want to be your friend not your special one 

xvole

Stimes

Gracias SCHOOL TIMES 

anxious waiting for tomorrow 

I didn't ask you to give what I want 

I ask you to just Understand 

p/s :: I don't know that hard to you 

Because This Is 1st Time

I heard that you're great

 I heard that you're one type just like me 

I know you care about your friendship pretty much 

I know friendship disaster your life 

through your blog 

through your status 

I know you're same like me

I don't know how to treat people and how to approach as well, 

because I never asking for a boy to be my friend, 

so, sorry for the wrong sentences that I used because 

I just don't know how to treat people

Let's Be Friend

Arrangement of Alphabets

Hey ! 

E . N . J . O . Y

your days . Each moment . 

Me ? say anything - NOPE 

[ you think that I'm not ]

F . U . N . N . Y

you ? understand .. ^ urmm - bolehlah 

Me ? pretend - YES 

[ say me ] 

W . E . A . K 

your weakness is there 

me ? has more than you - AGREE 

[ we say ]

T . H . I . N . K 

you & me 

blunders ? - ABSOLUTELY 

hiding ? - YUP 

selfish ? - COMPLETELY 

[ say their ] 

T . H . A . N . K

what have you done ?

me ? owh  - NOTHING 

touched ? for what - WEIRD 

hehehehheheheheh 

SMILE till u DIE ^^

who write it ? who make it ? who start it ? who finish it ? who full with revenge ? who mock it ?
who hate it ? who feel jerk with it ? who say it ? who told it ? who express it ?

me . you . them . their . we 

why all 5 of you so stubborn huh ? 

reblog::Kindness

Nobody has it easy; everybody has problems.

Even those you see on television, or those you hear on the radio.

You don't know what their life is really like,

or what they have to go through.

Nobody is perfect, nobody deserves to be perfect.

So before you start judging, criticizing or mocking.

Remember that everybody is fighting their own war,

so please be kind.

p/s::reblog from source 

it was exactly what I feel, it just I don't know how to express it in proper words

Secret Of A Lover

Unconditional love is when you give without hoping for any returns

trial spm >mood on< straight A's >InsyaAllah

reblog::untitled

It's true, what my instinct told me before.

I am just tired of it

because people will always leave me behind.

And now I am afraid to believe in my instinct.

I will just want to be like the rope, to hold on and hold on.

p/s::reblog from source

it was exactly what I feel, it just I don't know how to express it in proper words

Reblog::The Past

The past taught me how to dream.

The past taught me how to trust myself.

Because the past made who I am today.

If only the past knew this.

p/s::reblog from source 

it was exactly what I feel, it just I don't know how to express it in proper words

sometimes you have to smile, 

pretend everything's okay, 

hold back the tears and 

just walk away 

Reblog:FearFactor

Throughout my life, I have always been afraid of losing the people I love.

But then sometimes I wonder if there is anyone out there afraid of losing me.

I'm someone who cares so much about the people around me,

but I am not sure if they feel the same way.

I wonder if I have ever made a big impact on someone's life

p/s::reblog from source

it was exactly what I feel, it just I don't know how to express it in proper words

Heart BreaK

Once upon a time, I was looking outside the window in deep thought, "I'm so happy it's ridiculous. I wish I knew how heartbreak feels like" Now, wishing that is ridiculous. Looking back at my self five years ago, I wanted to step back into the past and slap her face and tell her to not wish stupid things. 

Because heart break is the lousiest feeling in the world. You are pathetic one way or another. You keep telling yourself you can cope, and it sounds pathetic. You cry yourself to sleep, and that's pathetic too. You eat chocolate and write in your blog that chocolate is better than a relationship, and that's one rubbish that is pathetic in every sense 

But now, I  don't think all of that is important anymore. I think the waiting game, the meeting a lot of strange characters, the pain and suffering that comes with heartbreak is just stepping stone towards something even more

little from Valentina Nervosa

We have same story line, the differ is just you have better place than me. You should glad about that/!

You're arrogant, arrogant and arrogant but you arrogant with peoples you don't know and you don't want to know. I think my name was in 'you don't want to know' am I right? 

No matter what, I wish you happy day. Salam 

p/s:: I've Mix Feeling Right Now 

Assalammualaikum, 

Happy Eid Ul-Fitr People

forgive all my wrongdoings for yesterday, today and future 

Ido

LFT&RFT

Do you ever do something out of sudden bravery that flew to your entire body? Your adrenaline tells, that you got this only to find out a little later how much you will regretting it? 

But there is nothing we can say for certain. Perhaps, when we are older, we will get wiser and all of these things started to make sense. 

Approaching

Assalammualaikum

Finally, dah masuk ramadhan yang ke-22,

ada yang dah mula penuhkan balang kuih, 

ada yang sibuk menjahit langsir

ada yang tengah buat renovation 

dan ada juga yang tak de buat apa2 sebab dia tak raya .. hahaha [ no function]

Raya dalam term 2012 untuk aku agak berbeda; 

naik cuti raya terus trial spm - Gempak startz kan !!! 

tapi tahun ni mama & kakak aku nak raya sakan, 

tahun ni 

langsir tukar, 

perabot adjust

pembuangan stock besar besaran 

pengosongan ruang habis habisan 

kuih berbalang balang 

meja buffet dah pasang

tinggal one step je lagi

Aku harap takdelah aku 'sakan' sangat raya nanti 

anyway teruskan berpuasa walaupun yang menulis ni pun tak cukup. 

and 

start count down HARI RAYA + TRIAL SPM 2012 

May Allah Bless