Thursday, January 30, 2020

Untitled


I had this thought.
What if I hold onto you.
What if I never let you go.
What could possibly happen to us now?

But I need to let you go. 
I need to leave you behind.
Because I am not your choice.
I know you have decided.

You tried so hard.
So I wouldn't get hurt.
But both of us know,
There is no other way. 

So, if people says I didn't fight.
They are wrong. 
If people says I didn't tried enough 
They are wrong. 

For I give my very best 
For I fight real fierce
And I love the hardest 

And if the path written 
is not directed to you, 
Then they will be another love story, for me.

For us all. 

Monday, January 13, 2020

That Woman


How much more shall I gaze to you alone? 
If I continue loving you like this, will you love me?
When I take a step closer, you took two step away.
What should I do then? 

Should I really listen to you and give up?
Should I listen to you and stop loving you?
You think I am that fool of not trying?
I did. But you still in my mind. 

Standing next to me.

Sunday, January 12, 2020

The Little Mermaid

Unlike Arel's, Little Mermaid doesn't live happily ever after with the prince. The prince is married to a woman who he thought, was saving him from drowning. Little Mermaid couldn't tell him the truth because she had changed her voice for a pair of leg. If she couldn't make the prince fall in love with her, she must kill the prince to stay alive. Long story short, Little Mermaid could not kill the prince because she loves the prince. And so, she turns to bubbles. 

A sad ending. It really is. 

The saddest part is, she sacrificed herself for someone who does not even know her sacrifice. For someone who barely know her. For someone who do not even notice her absent. And the pain she beared, are all for nothing. She disappears, like bubbles. Bubbles, that is all what she means -- to the prince. 

You came. Bothering me, all the way you can. Because you find me strange. Because you never see my kind in your world. The fairytale you live in, is a place too far, for me to reach. Hence you propose to me, to be your "Little Mermaid". You want me to answer your curiosity. And after you are done with me, you need me to disappear. Because you know, both of us will never make a perfect fit. 

Are you a fool? How stupid a person can be? Will there any woman begins any relationship she knows will end? "Not every relationship ends with marriage!" You said. So what, you want to play with my heart and marry someone else? You love me too much but you cannot picture a future with me? Is it?

Now answer me. Little Mermaid, is that all I can be?

The Path to Love


I may hurt you. 
Over and over again.
Some to save me.
Some to save you.
Some to save us.
Some to save others.

You may hurt me.
For the same reason. 
And yet, 
I have this fantastic hope,
that we will keep loving 
each other again. 

I know, I will hurt you somehow.
Even if I said, it was unintentional. 
Because when you said, I hurt you.
Then that's it. 

No excuse can defend me 
from the fact that I am hurting you.
But as cliche it may seem, trust me, 
I love you still, even more, even deeper.