of many people I cross path to

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful

I know his name. A brief of his story and the whole mysterious stories is still unknown to me. He is quite a big name in business that I currently grow. I am pretty sure that he doesn't know me. Too many people follows him already and he won't recognize me at all. I know that fact. 

Knowing that fact, it is so weird that we suddenly had each other's number and he didn't alert me when he came to my house to meet my parents to propose me. 

However, my parents reject the proposal. He was turned down but we had mutual feeling. My mom told me that I am not allowed to marry him. Knowing that, I feel sad, but I din't contact him at all. 

The next day, when we met each other on the event, our eyes met but we both pretend like nothing happened. I suddenly received a notification, he whatsapp me. 

He was being sulky because I didn't comfort him after the rejection (how am I supposed to, we barely talk to each other). Then I tell him what I truly feels and he suddenly said "I'll wait for you". 

And I ask "promise?", "promise" he said. 

I don't know it can be so comforting knowing that whatever happened, there is always someone who keep waiting for you. Someone you can rely on, someone you can build a family with. 

~~ alarm clock ringing ~~

I woke up how can a dream feels so real when in reality it is surreal?

I do know that man in real life. but just as my dream, he doesn't know me because he is a big name in a business I just started to build. We met few times but he never recognize me, and we don't have that kind of feelings. Nope, I don't have that romantic feelings towards him. I adore him as a sifu in the business, nothing more. I will definitely look at him with different way after this -- erghhh. I hate my heart for moment like this. It's funny but terrifying.

"Ya Allah, genggam rinduku saat aku terlalu merindukan kehadiran dia. 

Ya Allah, sabarkan aku tatkala aku terlalu menginginkan dia. 

Ya Allah, tenangkan aku saat aku tak mengerti cerita yang kau tuliskan untuk aku dan dia"

"O Allah, your humble servant beg for your guidance"