This September is a tough month 

for my siblings and I. 

Our parents are so far away from 

homeland. 

And we relying on whatsapp as connection tool 

between us. Of course the effect is not as same 

as when you talked face to face. 

I miss them a lot, I wanna cry. 

But thinking about my youngest siblings Kimi and Baby

who had no phones to read whatsapp, 

neither a phone that mama or ayah can get contact with

(because they stay with a nanny)

make me sadder. 

I should be really thankful. 

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Discovered a Person

Back then. 

People judge me. Without even give me the opportunities to defend myself.

People judge me.Just because they hear from someone else, they make distance. 

People judge me. Because of my physical appearance.

People judge me.Maybe because I don't reach their level of intelligence. 

People judge me.Labeling me as an arrogant bastard without knowing me. 

People judge and people will never stop judging others, because people will never want to understand that everyone is not coming from the same background as their. 

People always want to put others people on the same level as them, and when you are not fit with their specification, they will thrown you away. 

I have being judged and thrown away by people. 

I know how exactly does it feel to be ignored, being prejudiced, labelled and typed by irresponsible people. I ever feel that and never want to do that to another human being. Because its hurt so much, it could harden one's heart. The most dangerous part is, we never know that we could be among those who kill that one heart. Because as long as we are not in someone else shoes, we never want to understand. 

This is what happen in my class last night. There is a boy who people describe him as (lazy, not reliable, will not cooperate well, will not participate, etc). Yeah, I admit that he does look like that, but what makes people so heartless (I mean, everyone is trying not to get him on their group). Okay, it is not their fault anyway because that boy give a bad first impression but, I think we really need to open ourselves to know people by heart. 

I took him in, for my group assignment - task number one (lakonan). Haha, okay I already excited when it comes to acting!! lalala. Okay back to the story, everyone have one tiny hole in their soul. A hole that contain secrets about their past, a hole where they keep all the pain which becomes the reason why that person can be that person today. Get it? 

Our past teach us valuable and priceless lesson which make someone more careful/carefree, which make someone gloomy/happier. It depends. and those who have been hit by painful past - they grow weirder. They present themselves differently than the other. The complex mind that they have, is not for just anyone to enter and understand. It really need a lot of sabar and practice to calm down this kind of person. 

and I think, people have the power to ignore others and judge others just because they got a bunch of people behind them. But there is always a reminder for all of that - remember that 'that bunch' of people behind your back now, might turn their back to you anyway. People never learn how to be loyal to one and another. It takes a lot of courage for someone to be loyal anyway. 

Argh, I hate talking about this stuff because I am a bit sensitive when people pulaukan someone just because they still have friends beside them, and without a reasonable reason, they judge about that one person without knowing that one person better. Okay, I am done for now - because my misty eye won't allow me to write more. 

A brief about my degree

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tak ada idea dah nak tulis apa when I left blog for quite some times. Actually there are so many things to tell but when I didn't write on the spot while I am thinking/ feeling about that, I forget (not merely forget, but the feeling has changed and different)

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I want to tell about what I feel on the day of my admission in Unikl Mimet for my degree, but one week has passed since that. 

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Yeah, Kak Maisya brought me to some places in Manjung, during the days I stayed at her place, because after orientation day, there is no food provided for students, so they will need to look for food outside the campus. Unless you have your own transport, then there will be nothing to worry. However, for new comers like me, just what I have? So, I follow Mak Long's suggestion to stay with Kak Maisya. I am okay with that and Kak Maisya is really a nice person to know. I am quite chatty with her..hhaha, cause she pun melayan me. 

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I start my first day as a degree student with lot of butterflies in my stomach. The room quite hot for someone who covered with tons of fat like me, hehee - but I am okay with day. Perpeluhan berlaku in twenty four hours, so I hope for a good result la after few months staying here. The view from my room is amazing. Ada tasek, sungai, laut and I can see gunung - how lovely the nature is. 

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Internet? don't ask me about that. The wifi is slower than my data. Ergh, I can not even access my ECITE because I couldn't get the line. My room was at the end of the wings you know and right beside the bathroom. Owh ya, saying about the bathroom - on my fist night here.. I cannot sleep, because I hear something was knocking my cupboard and then the sound gone. But then, sounds of people clipping their nail was heard. I try not to turn my head to my study table as there was where I put my nail clipper. Ergh. 

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Yassin

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Few days after that, I didn't hear anything like that and everything went smoothly. I am glad for that. Alhamdulillah. 

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I still trying to cope with my classmate and course-mate, some of them are coming from NMIT, my senior (one batch above me) and they keep asking me why didn't I enter for January intake. "I don't want to be your junior" - I said. Tbh, I have a lot things that I want to do. If I can, I really want to fasten my degree - that is why I really want to do my degree at solent, but I failed to seek for any sponsorship. *sedih*

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How about friends and class? will update soon, because I feel so sleepy right now