Relegation.

Ever since I am 15 years old,
I am determined to lose weight
yet gaining it day by day. :'(

so now I am in relegating fat program.

I don't know how it works this time,
but we'll see.

Enthusiastic.

adj;

showing eager enjoyment or interest.

Long before I meet him, I am an enthusiastic kind of girl.

I know what I'm in to. 

I know what my interest is. 

and I will give my all, 

push myself to maximum level, 

using all source optimally. 

I have passion. 

After a while, 

I realise, slowly - I am losing it. 

I put my guard down just for a while 

and pappp, I couldn't focus on my track

anymore. 

I easily being distracted by trivial things. 

I guess I need to work out on it more. 

I just miss the old me who 

ever have passion on everything I did. 

when you do it with passion, 

you can get the positive impact from it. 

Even you squeeze your energy to the max, 

you will eventually find that it pays off. 

so, my mission now to once again become 

an enthusiastic girl :)

with hope and du'a 

Internship Position

My Industrial Training would be on 25 May 2015

and currently it's a bit confusing. 

I don't know which company should I propose my resume to. 

PTP could be great but Hj Tom preferred 

me to chose OnG company.

Erghh.

It's quite complicated. 

Here are the list of companies I am thinking of;

1. Murphy Oil

2. Nestle 

3. PTP 

Hilang

Everyone will be facing it one day. 

Losing persons you love. 

People told me that I am good at comforting people but 

when it comes to 'you losing a person you love'

there is nothing I could say other than 'are you okay?' and 

feel sorry. 

I just could pray, may Allah give you the strength to face 

the test. 

One thing, 

When you need someone to talk to and talking to a person wouldn't do. 

Then, talk to Him. 

--

Al- Fatihah

Full with wedding invitation

doing nothing during holiday, 

so we went to wedding invitation. 

Usually I am not going when my parents asked, 

but today is an exception. 

makan nasi minyak - yeayy

19 BIRTHDAY

19.

Finally. 

Many things happen during my journey to 19. 

I confused with myself, my feelings and everything. 

Sometimes I don't know what I do anymore.

I can't believe my instinct anymore. 

They keeps telling me lies. 

- I think so. 

but then, when it comes to the conclusion. 

I understand that everything has been decided

right from the start. 

everything. 

All those random things that we are not aware about 

might be things which important in our life. 

Throughout my life. 

I have been experiencing up and down days. 

so, today on my birthday,

I just want to thank everyone.

-my mom and dad for raise me. 

-my siblings who love me for what I am 

-my friends who stay by my side at my weakest

-my haters who tell me my weakness

and 

I also want to say thanks to those people who cause pain in my life. 

I have learned so much. 

without everything that you did, I might not be this strong. 

and last but not least, 

thanks to Allah who give me another chance to breath. 

please keep reminding me that the purpose of life is to worship Him and He only. 

Thanks for giving those person as my support system. 

"birthday is never about ourselve, its about people who stay with us througout our life"

Unproductive Holiday

I hate this feeling.
I read books day and night.
watching movies.
scrolling down instragram, facebook, twitter.
I felt saddened looking at my sad un-contented life.

I just want to do something
like hanging out watching beautiful scenery.
travelling with my back pack.
doing something adventurous.
or maybe doing some project which could give me money?
organite maybe?

My siblings were into running man
and they are addicted to it right now.
I felt that before, during my spm year.
if and only if I know this gonna happen,
I will be more focus during my 17.
Haha! I won't regret it anyway - I've learned my lesson.

Back to my story,
Is there anything I could do?

Bored.